Why The Fuck Are You Killing Me?

eric garner and michael brown and walter scott

I’m not indigenous to America,
so why the fuck are you killing me?
I didn’t row to the shores of this hole
to make slavery, my destiny.

Take a good look in the mirror
and I will tell you what you see.
What you see is your own guilt
 and you inflict your guilt on me.

I am proof that you are evil,
and that to you, I am hunted game.
I know that human, you are not
and that I bear your hated name.

You stripped everything from me
from where I was to who I am.
To this day, you are my owner
and I am a sacrificial lamb.

I took your god for my own
and look where it has led.
You burned my church down to the ground
because christian bullshit, I was fed.

Why should I be forgiving
since you still hold the whip
 and you lash my back until I bleed
as though I’ve just got off the ship?

In your eyes, I am nothing
 but in reality, you are less.
When you look at me, you know
that over your death, I do obsess.

I did not capture you,
nor did I bring you over here.
I would destroy you if I could.
That is why you look at me with fear!

Written by,

Shelby I. Courtland
©2015 Shelby I. Courtland

….and I mean every GOD-DAMN word!

14 thoughts on “Why The Fuck Are You Killing Me?

  1. You stripped everything from me
    from where I was to who I am.
    To this day, you are my owner
    and I am a sacrificial lamb.

    This verse says it all. It’s all about theft. Slavery and Jim Crow were part and parcel of the theft of the Commons. Before the Commons was privatized, it was fundamental to Common law that all human beings had a basic right to the means of subsistence. Over the last 400 years, we have been ruled by common criminals who live by the basic rule of greedy bastards: if you want it, take it and kill or imprison anyone who gets in your way.

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    • “Common law that all human beings had a basic right to the means of subsistence.”

      However, that was never applied to us. Throughout the history of this shithole, Black people, as far as the whites are concerned, are not entirely ‘people’. We is only three-fifths of people and those parts that we lack have no ‘basic right to the means of subsistence’. That shit never applied to us and it still doesn’t. But we can’t get with the program and understand that benevolence was pointed in our direction by the good ole ‘benevolent’ whites that just love to spout off all day and night about how giving and ‘christian’ and honorable they are because, by gosh, look at all the donations they give to charities that help the poor Black folks that cannot fend for themselves because they are just so goddamn lazy and all and who took all the reparations they received for all their slaving away in this shithole and they spent it all on buying up land and opening up banks and grocery stores and they are just doing so well for themselves, uh…I mean, they WERE doing so well for themselves until they sold all their land and every bank and grocery store they owned and all to the last one, went out and bought Timberland boots and FUBU and Air Nikes to the MAX and bought rims and gold chains and gold grills and guns and now they are shooting each other full of holes and that’s on them. They must be contained by the ‘blue wall of honor’. They’ve reverted back to the savages that they were before the whites civilized them and now, they cannot be trusted. They don’t know any better and therefore, they are better off dead. We as white folks understand this and so it is written and so it shall be! We as white folks have every reason in the world to hate Blacks but they have no reason to hate us. We cannot understand why they hate us because we acted so ‘benevolently’ towards those beasties, yes we did. I tell you, you get no thanks for trying to give Blacks a work ethic. Geesh! Thankless lot, they are!

      Dr. Bramhall, thank you for that spot on comment! Much appreciated!

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  2. This too is my frustrations and the words I wanna speak to them all want to come out at the same time. But before I can choke those words back down a new death make me wanna puke those words back up.

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    • HLJ, I hear you and believe me, I understand your feelings all TOO well! If it were up to me…..? Well, I’m pretty sure you get the idea. It goes without saying.

      Thank you for your comment I sincerely appreciate it.

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  3. Your life is being praised Shelby I. Courtland! ♥

    “I am proof that you are evil,
    and that to you, I am hunted game.
    I know that human, you are not
    and that I bear your hated name.” <This!!!

    Indigenous to every continent on the earth I am, "We" are. #CosmicBiologicalFactsBruh
    Peace & Love –E.E.♥

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