A Tale of Two AmeriKKKas

Alexandra Valoras, who committed suicide and residents of Baltimore, MD holding a candlelight vigil for a homicide victim.
A Tale of Two Amerikkkas


A tale of two Amerikkkas is about an Amerikkka where one group is just too ‘white privileged’ to want to live while the other Amerikkka is just too destitute, poverty-stricken and saturated with guns and drugs to be able to live. First, we shall start with the ‘white privileged’ group.

White Parents blindsided by daughter’s suicide hope her story helps save others

The home video will look so familiar to so many parents: a sweet little girl singing and dancing her way to her teen years, recognized for achievements outside the home and thoroughly cherished inside it.

But the full story of Alexandra Valoras’ life is more terrifying than familiar. Just weeks after a family ski vacation, the 17-year-old high school junior, straight-A student, class officer and robotics whiz made her bed, tidied her room and walked to a highway overpass in Grafton, Massachusetts. She jumped off the edge.


Yes, it was just too much! The pressure of living up to all that she felt was expected of her was just too much for Alexandra Valoras to deal with. She would have been considered a failure if she had ever gone to her parents and told them what she instead, wrote in a journal in that she was just too tired of being their ‘perfect little angel’. “Daddy took me to a concert and I hated it while I had to pretend to love it,” she wrote in her journal. “Just got back from skiing and I hated it.” “Just received another medal for doing something else outstanding.” “Just named ‘honor student of the year’.” “But I am a failure!” “I am lazy!” These are the feelings that poor privileged Alexandra Valoras wrote in her journal that she could not say to her parents and would they have even listened or paid any attention to her words? The words in her journal do not sound as though she felt, “cherished.” But now that she is dead, her parents have finally found her journal, which was in the home the entire time. However, her parents had to find the journal near her body as she lay dead underneath a highway overpass. And Alexandra’s parents are still wondering to this very day, why they had no clue as to what their daughter was going through. So, what? They never heard that it is well within your rights as a parent to know what your child is up to? You are obligated to know what your child is up to. In this day and age of internet bullying, cyber stalking and Craigslist meetups and murders, you’d better sift through your child’s emails, social media accounts and yes, journals and diaries. The day your children have privacy is the day they leave the nest.

Whites are so oblivious to everything around them, including their own family members, that they don’t even know their own children. They are more clued in to other groups whom they hate for whatever reason, than they are to their own family who, like Alexandra Valoras, wrote her true feelings down and her journal,  chronicling her feelings was in her room, waiting to be found, but since her parents simply could not be bothered, she is now dead and they are sitting somewhere wondering, “WHY?” You have only yourselves to blame since you think that giving your children ALL that money and credit cards can buy is what they need and because of this, you will continue to read diaries and journals that showcase your shockingly appalling lack of awareness of what is going on in your own homes. While you think your children’s smiles speak volumes on their mental well-being, you will continue to find your children lying underneath an overpass or hanging from the rafters while you are busy on the phone with your ski instructor making plans for your next ski vacation.

Now the Valoras claim they are on a mission to stop this from happening to other ‘white’ parents who just give their children everything that money and credit cards can buy, but little else. Your country clubs and golf courses and spa retreats come first. When do you have the time to even wonder what your children are doing when you’re meeting Rachel for lunch and then you have a hair appointment and then you’ve got to meet your tennis instructor and then you’ve got to go to the gym and then you’ve got to meet with Sarah for cocktails and dinner at an expensive restaurant and by the time you make it back home, your children should be in bed. And you get up the next day and do the same exact shit with different people and yet it is all so pointless because your children are very much aware that you prefer to spend time with anyone else, anywhere else so long as it is not with them, that is until they have managed to get your attention by achieving an honor and then that is when you take them to a concert, to celebrate that achievement. But then it is back to your selfish, self-serving lifestyle that revolves around you while you are sitting back thinking that your children should feel “cherished” simply because ‘why shouldn’t they’ since they have everything money can buy? Oh, you think your kids are okay because they have every device to play with and their rooms are filled to bursting, but what money cannot buy is what your children are missing, namely their parents undivided attention and love, not just parents who only reward them when they are honored for some achievement. They may as well be a trained seal, performing for you for treats.

Since this is September, which has been designated as National Suicide Prevention Awareness Month, I guess this story is to showcase the fact that suicide is now the second leading cause of death for ‘white’ 15 to 24 year olds of both sexes and that ‘white’ teen suicide is now at a 40-year high for young women Alexandra’s age. There is also a list of warning signs you are to look out for.

A person thinking about or threatening suicide or seeking a way to kill themself

Increased substance abuse Feelings of purposelessness, anxiety, being trapped, or hopeless

Social isolation and withdrawing from people and activities

Expressing unusual anger, recklessness, or mood changes

But I don’t believe that this was the case with Alexandra Valoras since she did not display her feelings of purposelessness and hopelessness. She wrote them down. She wanted her parents to find her journal, but instead, she had to leave it where she committed suicide because she knew they’d not be able to overlook it then.

So, white folks! Instead of turning your anger and hatred towards others, maybe you should figure out what is going on in your own households and focus your attention there. It would seem to be the logical thing to do or you will continue to find your children at the bottom of an overpass after having jumped and the journal chronicling their journey to that overpass, lying somewhere nearby.

Next we come to the ‘other Amerikkka where suicide would be understood as a way out, however, homicides are the way out for far too many. But who cares about these statistics? 

‘Neighborhoods are crying out’: Baltimore has highest homicide rate of U.S. big cities

Baltimore had the worst homicide rate among the nation’s 50 largest cities last year and the second-highest violent crime rate overall, according to new data from the FBI.

The grim news was the latest reminder of the sustained cycle of violence that has gripped the city since 2015, when the annual number of homicides soared above 300 for three consecutive years after the unrest that followed Freddie Gray’s death from injuries suffered in police custody.

Baltimore Maryland is a city I know too much about after having lived there for several years in the mid 90s and again recently. I posted a blog a few years back detailing the outrageous horrifying statistics of a city mired in poverty, drug addiction, prostitution, gang violence, drug turf wars and hundreds of homicides a year. I even pointed out the fact that the National Association for the Advancement of Colored People (NAACP) is headquartered on Mt. Hope Drive in Baltimore, MD and yet, there is nothing that that organization has done to rein in the horrific statistics of a majority Black city. Far too many of Baltimore’s children are the victims of poverty and drug addicted single moms who don’t even know who their father is and if they do, he is more than likely in prison or has been murdered. These children are dropping out of school in record numbers and are being groomed for the ‘school-to-prison pipeline’.

In a post titled, “Sirens Are Our Lullabies,” I penned a poem about how Baltimore’s citizens, especially her children, are not gently falling asleep to the tune of softly whispered lullabies from their parent’s lips, but by the screams of sirens nearby that could only mean one thing, another homicide.

Did you hear that?’: Amid Baltimore’s surge in killings, a faint cry in a locked car

BALTIMORE — No one saw the baby.

She sat in a gold-hued car with tinted black windows as her 26-year-old father lay on the ground outside, dying.

All eyes were on him, another fallen body in a city increasingly defined by them.

In portions of Baltimore, the strobe lights of police cars is as much a part of the landscape as boarded-up homes. But the pace of the killings this year has been stunning as the city struggles to recover from rioting in 2015. As of Friday, 124 people had been slain, including five on a recent day, making Baltimore’s homicide rate one of the highest in the country. It is more than triple Washington’s rate and higher than the homicide rates in New Orleans and Chicago, two places that have become national symbols of gun violence.

A crying baby, sitting in her car seat, oblivious to the fact that her father lay dying mere feet away, unaware of the poverty and unbelievable hardships that she is going to have to face, if she does not get shot dead during some drive-by shooting first. Unlike Alexandra Valoras, who killed herself even as she had everything money and credit cards could buy and two parents in the household who took her on ski vacations and to concerts that she really didn’t want to go to, this little Black baby girl, sitting in her daddy’s car, will never know her father, much less will she have the opportunity to go on a ski vacation or even to a concert. It is highly likely that she will never know the area beyond the derelict neighborhood she and her mother will ‘live’ in. It is also highly likely that she will be raised by her grandmother, if she is still alive, because many young adults in Baltimore are strung out on drugs, either illegal or government sanctioned and grandmothers are left to raise their grandchildren, when they can. Otherwise, they end up in foster care.

Heroin and crack have decimated many cities that house a majority of Black residents and elected officials just shake their heads and bemoan the paucity of good paying jobs that could take the place of drug dealing, thus cutting down on the poverty and homicide rates. They look to the police to incarcerate the problem away. They look to ex-cons to patrol neighborhoods in order to instill a “You don’t want to end up like me,” message into the residents mired in hopelessness, poverty, violence and despair. But is any of this working? Hell no!

Whites, who are probably like Alexandra Valoras parents watch the evening news and exclaim over the violence of “those” people and say to themselves, “At least OUR children don’t have to rub shoulders with those people,” not even realizing that they have more in common with “those” people than they think. The same hopelessness and despair that drove Alexandra Valoras to commit suicide exists in the children of those who live in cities like Baltimore, MD. The only difference is they know that they will more than likely be murdered by simply walking to the store than be a victim of suicide. Commit suicide? What for? It is only a matter of time before they too, will become, a homicide statistic.

So, I say to Alexandra Valoras’ parents, while you are out parading around town, spreading the news that other parents in your shoes should take more interest in what their children are doing, take a moment and stop and consider that what happened to your daughter is in some way, karma, thanks in part to your lack of empathy, compassion and sympathy for those who are born into poverty, hopelessness and despair; the outcasts, those who have been abandoned deliberately by whites who are responsible for why a little Black girl in Baltimore City is in a car seat, mere feet away from her dying father who you think died at the hands of another Black man, but in reality, he is dead because guns and drugs were put into the hands of his killer by those who look like you since Black people do not own the planes and ships to deposit drugs on America’s shores nor do Black people manufacture guns or are members of the NRA that tout lax gun laws to politicians, daily. Those who look like you do. But there you sit in your insulated world thinking that all is right within it, that is until you find your daughter, lying dead underneath an overpass with the pain of having lived with you scribbled in a journal near her dead body. If she finds life intolerable living with you, how do you think it is for us? Something I would think on if I were you because what comes around, as you can plainly see, goes around.

14 thoughts on “A Tale of Two AmeriKKKas

  1. Shelby,

    This needs to be read at like a podium with a microphone in front of a crowd of 10,000 people. Please make this into a like a YouTube vid or something lol. Truly unapologetic and straight up brutally honest. #ZeroFsGiven

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    1. I am indeed, unapologetic because what have we to apologize for? We are most definitely not responsible for why Alexandra committed suicide. Her completely selfish and self-centered, “beside themselves with white privilege” parents are responsible for that. We are in ‘survival mode’ while whites are in ‘suicide mode’. Now how whacked is that? They live a life of indulgence and privilege while we are dodging bullets as we head to the food bank and yet, their children are committing suicide at record numbers. That is to make up for the fact that our children are being killed by whites who have seen to it that guns and drugs were introduced into our communities and that we were intentionally segregated in those communities for that express purpose.

      I have been telling whites for quite some time now that they are not going to continue to do their dirt and get off scot-free. It is just not going to happen. We, as Black people, are belittled and accused of not being able to fight and claw our way up out of poverty, drugs, violence and gentrification when all of that is put into play by whites who don’t even care for their own children and so then how can we expect the likes of them to ever have any feelings for us? We don’t. But at the same time, they don’t get to sit back and reap the rewards of someone else’s labor, heap it on their children and expect that their white privilege insulated lifestyle would continue with no repercussions. That is not how it works and the shit is coming home to roost all up their ass.

      As much as I am complimented by your comment, I am not on Youtube and I highly doubt that I would be “allowed” to post much seeing as how my views are not popular with the status quo and I am simply too real for words. And as much as it is known how I hate, despise and loathe white people, my face on a video would get me shot or locked up even in my own home. Look at what happened to Botham Shem Jean. No, this will have to suffice. But I thank you kindly for suggesting that I should spread this message far and wide.

      Again, T.S.P, I thank you for your comment. And to give you a clue as to how I would not be allowed to get my message across on Youtube, your comment was consigned to the “Trash” bin by WordPress. Censorship of us is still all the rage, doncha know.

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    1. Moorbey, with who controls the media, there is no way in hell that this would ever stand a snowball’s chance in hell of even getting on the page that contains obituaries. Whites cannot stand the ‘in your face and telling it like it is’ that I have written here. They must always be depicted as saints and angels which of course is why you never see a ‘Black” saint or angel. As vile and depraved, atrocious and barbaric as whites are, there is no damn way that they could ever be synonymous with ‘saint’ or ‘angel’. But their arrogance and conceit knows no bounds.

      And as was the case with T.S.P.’s comment, likewise, yours was consigned to the ‘trash’ bin by WordPress as well. The only other comment posted, which is posted by a ‘white’ person, was ‘allowed’ through the filter. Go figure. So, there is no reason in the world to think that I could take what I have written here and attempt to get it more widely spread. Even if this blog content were to be spread, far and wide, those who it pertains to will pay it no heed, hence the reason why their own children are committing suicide and does that change them? No indeed. They are incapable of even loving their own children since their idea of demonstrating love and affection is by virtue of showering their children with money, credit cards and a great vacation and they then have the nerve to question why their child who, according to them, had no reason in the world to want to commit suicide, did indeed do so. Whites will never get it and so their children will continue to try to make them do so in the only way they think they can; by suicide.

      Moorbey, I cannot thank you enough for your comment. It means much to me to know that you also think that this one should have a wider audience. I wish it could be so. But alas, this must do.

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      1. Truthfully i also know that they the major newspaper would never publish your piece for i have had word press remove quite a things i have posted. You and are similar in the factthat we are field negros (I don’t use the other word) and i am proud that i am a thorn in their sidewill be till i leave this place and at the same time i am trying to build an army to step up and continue what our beautiful rebellious Elders started. Fight on Queen

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      2. Moorbey, I am extremely rebellious as well. And if I can push back, even in some small way, against the barrage of bullshit that is touted by whites everyday about their benevolence, humanitarianism, empathy and the like which they are SO NOT synonymous with, I will do so.

        And of course they want those of us who do attempt to push back, silenced. Hence why our blogs are never ‘Freshly Pressed’ in order to receive more views or as in your case, posts deleted. That is just plain wrong!

        Just as you say, I too, am a ‘field negro’. And I will continue as one because they’ll not having me selling out for ’30 pieces of silver’ and the loss of my self-respect.

        Our Elders did indeed, rebel in every possible way. Would that more of us, today, were like them, but I have no choice but to take what I can get.

        Moorbey, I sincerely appreciate your comment.

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  2. Shelby, in my view white American families like the Valoras live in a golden cage. Their children recognize it, but as in Alexandra’s case, the parents refuse to accept what their adolescents are trying to communicate. Many perfectionist teen girls like Alexandra develop anorexia nervosa, which is nearly as fatal as suicide if it isn’t treated in time.

    What makes me really sad is that this golden cage is purely psychological, white elites could easily open the door and walk out, but driven by fear and superstition they don’t. I have always maintained that white people stand to benefit more from integration than African Americans – namely in losing their fear and superstition.

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    1. Spoken like a true psychiatrist Dr. Bramhall. Come out of retirement and attempt to clue the clueless in. It would appear that your services are still sorely needed. With an epidemic of suicides of white adolescents, I am sure that your coffers would be overflowing more so now, than when you were practicing years ago since as you can clearly see, things are getting worse, not better.

      If white people fear us, it is because of what they have done to us and the fact that they expect us to reciprocate in kind to the point that we should be trying to fuck their shit up. What they fail to comprehend is the fact that we don’t have it in us, that thing that makes whites so depraved, heartless, bloodthirsty, cruel, barbaric, corrupt, inhumane and pathological. Unfortunately for us. we have always been too trusting and selfless. We allow ALL others into our inner circle and this has hurt us tremendously. When whites are abandoned by their own family for marrying with Black people, Black people don’t shun them. I do, but many others don’t.

      And if Alexandra did suffer from anorexia nervosa, apparently, it was not killing her soon enough because she committed suicide first. But the parents of these suicides ALL say the same thing, “she/he was ‘cherished.” “Becky had everything!” “Scott was sent on a tour of Europe with his friends and he sent us pictures of fun-filled days and nights and when he got back, he hung himself.” Yes, to whites, money, trips, expensive flashy cars, mansions and credit cards are the cure for everything. Why in the world would Becky, Scott, Ian and Sarah commit suicide? They will never get it Dr. Bramhall. They’ll never get it.

      I thank you for your comment.


  3. This does not surprise me. When you here of these white kids murderig their parents always seem to come from affluent backgrounds. Always. Nothing suorises me anymore . Like the case of the demon British dog Lynsey pals I -flax man that just sacked her black nanny when she found out she was black siting she feared she would harm her kids being black and all!!!! The demon is so wealthy she chose not to have an interview or meet with the woman that would essentially be bringing up her kids and upon finding out she was black used the violent black woman defence when the nanny filed wrongful dismissal charges. These demons althrow money at everything ffs what demon doesn’t bring up their own kids for one and employs a nanny and two doesn’t even meet with said nanny to get a feel for who will bring up their children!! They actually don’t care they breed these babies and wonder why they end up commit suicide or murder them whilst they sleep ffs.

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  4. These people wonder why it’s always white kids from affluent families that end up murdering their own parents!! Like the current case of the degenerate Lyndsey plastic flaxman a rich white woman that fire her nanny upon realising the nanny she employed to bring up HER children was black!!!! Now there are too many points state but 1: what woman allows a stranger /other person to bring up their kids in the first place 2: what woman employs any freaking stranger regardless without even meeting hem, interviewing them, getting a personal vibe from them etc . Who the fuck does that!!!! Oh yes hats right rich white people. So in most normal women’s thinking their kids are their life and would arrange at least a meeting with the person that will be spending at least 80percent of their time with their kids whilst they never see them!!! Also she used the when I found out she was black she said she feared that she would abuse her kids the same kids she never sees and chooses someone to bring them up. Using the old white people excuse of black women are aggressive etc etc. Also this demon has enough money to see her grandchildren never go without so why does she still choose to go to work and not see her kids 90percent of the time willingly whilst she has the disposable income to be a full time mother and nurture them babies. There are many black woman that have to go to menial jobs and kill rhemselves mentally spiritually and physically everyday with the guilt knowing they have to be away from being a mother just to barely cover the rent this bitch has the option to be with her kids but yet wants strangers to bring them up and they wonder why their Ivy League privileged kids are killing them or themselves lol

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    1. ribrabss, you are right on point! Slave women raised the offspring of those white parasites and even to this day, Black women who clean the homes of whites are raising their fucking children. And they had better be glad that I was not among them.

      Whites don’t give a shit for their kids because if they did, their privileged offspring would not be committing suicide at record numbers and they don’t have anyone to blame for that shit except themselves.

      Black children have a far worse time of it than those privileged assholes and yet no one has started running all over the place trying to rein in abject poverty in Black communities that are segregated pockets of crime, violence, low educational attainment and other social ills. But let some rich white kids commit suicide and it’s National Suicide Prevention Month and some more damn shit of the like. When have I ever seen National Stop Fucking Up Black People Month? Not fucking ever and I won’t be seeing hide nor hair of that. Our children can just head straight from a fucked up public education system into a FOR PROFIT PRISON and so ‘out of sight, out of mind’. Well, if anyone thinks that I’d weep for whites, they’ve got another think coming.

      ribrabss, I sincerely thank you for your comment.


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