“WHY?”

I am like a star that refuses to shine,
or you could liken me to a plant
that just won’t grow,
worn out from endless battles
fought over my skin.
  Is there no final curtain call
on a show that will never end?
These are my burdens of despair,
drooping my shoulders
and graying my hair.
Cops still shooting us down,
drugs plaguing what’s left
of hoods yet to be gentrified.
Siren-filled nights,
as gunfire brings home,
a message of cruelty,
inhumanity and torn apart lives.
I look for answers,
but all I have is one question,
“WHY?”

Written by,
Shelby I. Courtland
©2018 Shelby I. Courtland

Sometimes, I am so filled with despair over the suffering that is relentless, that it suffocates me. To have a heart that hurts so much to the point that it makes me want to just scream. Why are we devolving into debased creatures who can kill each other without even blinking? And it begs the question for those who believe in evolution, “Did we ever really ‘evolve’?” When I look around, I can honestly say, “No, we did not!” For surely, what we see is irrefutable proof that we certainly did not! And if anyone should be so disturbed as to believe that these were ‘mercy killings’…..just don’t even go there.

The blog that preceded this one is partly responsible for this post and then, add this into the equation and my heart is heavy with despair!

Homeless men are being gunned down on the street in Las Vegas

The video is chilling. James Edgar Lewis is sleeping under a Las Vegas freeway when a dark-colored SUV passes by. Seconds later, a man wearing a dark top emerges from the vehicle and shoots Lewis twice in the head before fleeing.

There is no struggle, no fight. Lewis never even appears to wake up.

“It’s basically an execution,” said Lt. Dan McGrath of Las Vegas Metropolitan Police.

This is the second such killing in the Las Vegas area.

On January 29, Brian Clegg was shot and killed, also while sleeping, in front of a business on a busy street.

Two lost souls sleeping on the streets, with as many horrors and problems that entails and then,  finally, from sheer exhaustion, more than likely, finding some relief in sleep, only to be shot dead.

I look for answers,
but all I have is one question,
“WHY?”

Ho Hum! Another Mass Shooting By A White Man

stephen paddock

 

 

You know, this is becoming quite redundant and actually, I have not read one report, article or blog on this most recent mass shooting that occurred in Las Vegas. I only read several headlines since you cannot miss them if you tried.

From what I gather, another upset ‘white’ man went on a killing spree and shot up a bunch of people at some country music venue. Imagine that! And I am quite sure the usual tired talking points were expounded upon on channel after channel with reporters attempting to look as somber as possible while inwardly, they were all but shaking with glee to have something to report on other than the recent destruction of Puerto Rico by Hurricanes Irma and Maria. Puerto Rico, with your woes, step aside especially since Mr. Bankruptcy himself, President Donald Trump, has blamed the island nation for its woes claiming that, well…read it for yourself.

Donald J. Trump

@realDonaldTrump

Texas & Florida are doing great but Puerto Rico, which was already suffering from broken infrastructure & massive debt, is in deep trouble..

Puerto Rico is “suffering from broken infrastructure & massive debt?” Is he serious? The entire U.S. is “suffering from broken infrastructure & massive debt” and this fool wants to concentrate on that when the people of Puerto Rico are dealing with no food, water, access to electricity, telephones; the whole nine yards. Donald Trump is ALL heart! And please note the sarcasm.

But as usual, I digress. I chalk it up to getting older.

Back to the ‘disgruntled white mass murderer’. Let me guess! He was ‘mentally ill’. His mommy didn’t change his diapers often enough when he was a baby. His daddy walked out on them just when he needed a father figure the most. He was bullied in school. He could never get the pretty girls. He was a loner. His dog died and he became bereft and drifted about. He had loads of money and did not know what to do with all of it and so he bought himself an armload of eye candy who took him for everything he was worth and so he decided to take his anger out on others. Am I getting hotter?

But I am sure the media is not calling this ‘white’ man, a terrorist or a thug. Oh! No way! Those designations are for Muslims and Blacks. This man just needed some meds and some counseling and he’d of never done this deed. I am also guessing that he’s dead and so no explanation is to be forthcoming from him and the news is ripe with speculation and innuendo. Every CNN reporter, MSNBC reporter, ABC, NBC, CBS and so forth and so on are going on and on about this poor man’s mental state at the time of this mass shooting. “Oh what terrible, horrible life this man must have led to lead him to do something of this nature!” We have got to do something about the lack of available slots for the mentally ill!” “We need more background checks…yep…background checks would have stopped this!” Sigh!

For the love of !!! Give me a damn break! No amount of background checks in the world would have stopped this mass shooting just as it will not stop the next and the next. There are so many guns in the hands of Americans that there is just no way to disarm the people of this country. The NRA will not stand for it. And there will be shouts that by disarming ‘mentally stable’, law-abiding Americans this will cause only criminals to have access to guns. We’ve heard it all before and we shall hear it again. But you know what? I’m not one bit upset by this most recent mass shooting because I am still reeling from the murder of Trayvon Martin, Renisha McBride, Aiyana Mo’nay Stanley-Jones,  Sandra Bland, Walter Scott, John Crawford, Philando Castile, Freddie Gray, Keith  Childress, Bettie Jones, Kevin Matthews, Michael Noel, Leroy Browning, Roy Nelson, Miguel Espinal, Nathaniel Pickett, Tiara Thomas, Cornelius Brown, Jamar Clark, Richard Perkins, Michael Lee Marshall, Alonzo Smith, Anthony Ashford, Dominic Hutchinson, Lamontez Jones, Rayshaun Cole, Paterson Brown, Christopher Kimble, Junior Prosper, Keith McLeod, Wayne Wheeler, Lavante Biggs, India Kager, Tyree Crawford, James Carney III, Felix Kumi, Asshams Manley, Christian Taylor, Troy Robinson, Brian Day, Michael Sabbie, Billy Ray Davis, Samuel Dubose, Darrius Stewart, Albert Davis, Salvado Ellswood, George Mann, Jonathan Sanders, Freddie Blue, Victo Larosa III, Spencer McCain, Kevin Bajoie, Zamiel Crawford, Jermaine Benjamin, Kris Jackson, Kevin Higgenbotham, Ross Anthony, Richard Gregory Davis, Curtis Jordan, Markus Clark, Lorenzo Hayes, De’Angelo Stallworth, Dajuan Graham, Brandon Glenn, Reginald Moore, Nuwnah Laroche, Jason Champion, Bryan Overstreet, David Felix, Terry Lee Chatman, William Chapman, Samuel Harrell and the list is endless. These Black people were killed by KKKops and they were unarmed, some of them were mentally ill and posed no threat to anyone, some were killed by police who were engaged in high speed chases which had nothing to do with who they killed and not one KKKop that murdered any of the aforementioned has been charged with a crime but I am quite sure that ALL mainstream media reporters have now jumped on the KKKops aka ‘first responders bandwagon, praising them to the high heavens for rushing to the scene of this mass shooting. But what mainstream media reporter has given any attention to these people who were murdered? HA! That’ll be the day! This is mass murder. Oh indeed, it is! But you see, mass murder of Black people by racist KKKops is just business as usual. Nothing to see here. Move along.

But now that we’ve come to Mr. Misunderstood Mentally Ill Affluenza, well we’ve just got to make excuses for his heinous crime. It is not his fault. He is a victim of ‘white privilege’ and us Black folks had just best be glad that we don’t suffer the effects of this most serious of privileged afflictions. No, I will not be getting out the purple crepe and the black armbands, nor will I offer up any stupid, useless ‘prayers’ because so long as ‘whites’ continue to worship their guns even as they sit up in church with them strapped to their side, mass murder of ‘innocent’ people will continue and don’t they know it. You people are so deranged and depraved that you don’t even care that you’re probably next. You’ve got your gun strapped to your hip and you’re badass. No, you’re not! You’re stupid! And you’re a fool if you believe that that gun will protect you because you’ll be hit when you least expect it, just like the 59 who got whacked by a murdering, privileged ‘white’ terrorist. When have I ever tread lightly for your sake? It hasn’t happened and don’t hold your breath waiting for me to do so for if you do, you’ll be just as dead as those 59 country music concert goers in Las Vegas; Sin City. Go figure! And while you’re at it, figure out that you will die by that which you so love, your damn guns! Oh, and before I forget, I hear tell that you now want guns with silencers. I sincerely hope you get your wish, silenced!