Black Mental Health as Popular Culture: A Black Female Perspective — Whispers of a Womanist

The present fixation on black mental health appears to seize an obscure communal issue from hallway whispers to center stage. While black doctors like Dr. Bobby Wright, Dr. Francis Cress Wesling, and Dr. Amos Wilson engender this transition with their discourse, this is not what we see in the anti-black media. It is particularly, problematic than an environment made abnormal by anti-blackness assumes precedence in labeling black abnormality. […]

via Black Mental Health as Popular Culture: A Black Female Perspective — Whispers of a Womanist

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The biggest issue for me is the demand and treatment that functions to make black people functional in an anti-black society. Particularly, the return to society as “normal” hardly means preparing black people to cognitively withstand the perils of blackness; rather, this means that normalizing or medicating blacks will resume their roles as societal subjugates or assimilationists.

The system of white supremacy is a means to our end by any means necessary. The medical field and the field of psychiatry play a huge role in sending us to the grave; posthaste and I have seen plenty examples of that. But what I would like to know is how can the most deranged, psychopathic, murdering, thieving, lying, dispassionate, racist lunatics EVER find the gonads to call someone else crazy when their debased asses are the very definition of INSANITY??!!!

It doesn’t get any more insane than hating people who are only in this piece of shit shithole thanks to their ancestors dragging ours the fuck over here. That shit’s not on us and yet, we’re the crazy fuckers? I beg to fucking differ.

My cousin has been filled with every damn psych drug they could get him to swallow, or inject in him to the point whereas the man’s brain is barely functional and on top of that, he is dealing with TBI(Traumatic Brain Injury). The man had an anti-psychotic medication induced heart attack and the racists in this shithole burg wanted to perform an angioplasty on him even though they could find no blockage. Of course they couldn’t find a blockage because just as his obesity, high triglycerides, high cholesterol and diabetes was medication induced, caused by anti-psychotic drugs, so was the heart attack caused by Invega Sustenna. I am just sorry that I did not investigate that drug more thoroughly before he started taking it.

The racist quacks in Minnesota even diagnosed me as having ‘histrionic personality disorder’ because I was injured in a car accident and the injury became inflamed and my entire shoulder was on fire. I went to the ER and at first they were putting nitroglycerin under my tongue as though I was having a heart attack even as I was telling them that it was not a heart attack, it was an injury to my shoulder that was acting up. And of course this goes back to the fact that WHITE DOCTORS DO NOT LISTEN TO BLACK PATIENTS. I was screeching this for an entire day until FINALLY,  the next day, they decided to send me to radiology for an MRI of my shoulder and while I was sitting in the wheelchair waiting on the attendant to finish receiving his orders from the nurse, I opened up the chart that the attendant had handed to me to hold while he pushed the wheelchair and I saw what shocked and amazed me. The chart had nothing about my shoulder. Everything inside the folder was mentioning that I had HISTRIONIC PERSONALITY DISORDER characterized by ‘wanting to be praised’……..for a goddamn shoulder on fire????!!!! And it turns out that the MRI showed a rotator cuff tear and bursitis in the shoulder. And yet I was already diagnosed BEFORE the MRI as being mentally ill when it turns out, I had two serious issues in the shoulder that sent me to the hospital in pain. Whites are insane in their hatred of us.  And yet, this shit is what they had me diagnosed as having:

A mnemonic that can be used to remember the characteristics of histrionic personality disorder is shortened as “PRAISE ME”:[8][9]

  • Provocative (or seductive) behavior
  • Relationships are considered more intimate than they actually are
  • Attention-seeking
  • Influenced easily by others or circumstances
  • Speech (style) wants to impress; lacks detail
  • Emotional lability; shallowness
  • Make-up; physical appearance is used to draw attention to self
  • Exaggerated emotions; theatrical

Causes

Little research has been done to find evidence of what causes histrionic personality disorder and from where it stems. Although direct causes are inconclusive, there are a few theories and studies conducted that suggests there are multiple possible causes. There are neurochemical, genetic, psychoanalytical, and environmental causes contributing to histrionic personality disorder. Traits such as extravagance, vanity, and seductiveness of hysteria have similar qualities to women diagnosed with HPD.[10] HPD symptoms do not fully develop until the age of 15 with treatment only beginning at approximately 40 years of age.[11][12]

“There are a few theories??!!” What.The.Fuck. This is yet another MADE UP diagnosis by the whites to label Black people as being mentally ill in order to discredit us. Everything whites do to us is to either discredit us, criminalize us and kill us. That is their purpose in life; to fuck us up in every conceivable way possible and they do! And I’m supposed to trust them???!!! Not fucking EVER!!!

But this is the clincher!

“Associated features include egocentrism, self-indulgence, continuous longing for appreciation, and persistent manipulative behavior to achieve their own needs.”

So whites stated that I have a disease characterized by having the ability to, in some way, that is inconsistent with their values, and that is funny because whites don’t have any values, achieve MY OWN NEEDS!!! Seriously???!!!! The whites are not saying that I am achieving shit that I WANT, they are claiming that I am mentally ill because I have the ability to get WHAT THE FUCK I NEED!!! That is some straight up bullshit right there! And of course, they don’t know much about histrionic personality disorder and do you know why? Because it is another one of their piece of shit diagnoses that they got from out their ass in order to put some more shit on Black people in this shithole they stole from the Indians and then used my ancestors to build up and yet, I’m the crazy fucker? All Black people in this shithole are the crazy ones??!! For real! Whites better stay the fuck out of my face because I have about had it with their shit!

Once again, for the motherfuckers that are dumb as all hell, ain’t no motherfucker on this planet, crazier than the whites and yet, they get to sit on their depraved, lunatic asses and make bank off trying to get every single Black person on their goddamn killer drugs while others that look like them are sitting somewhere blowing themselves up with meth labs or are overdosing on heroin. You diagnosis THAT shit. I’m supposed to be crazy because I get what I need and yet white motherfuckers hoard money, property, land and everything that’s valuable while denying others the right to live in one goddamn home and yet, I’m the crazy one? My cousin is the crazy one? Fuck ALL y’all pasty-assed, crazy, racist motherfuckers!

Black folks, if you can’t take anything from this blog, take this, if whites manage to try and get you on a psych ward, they will try and get you to sign a paper stating that you want to be discharged, DO NOT SIGN IT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES. That is how they get Black people hemmed up on civil commitment court shit and then they are forced to get those killer injections. Let them keep your ass on that psych ward for as long as they want to, but under no circumstances sign ANY paper stating that you want to leave because then they got ya. Whites count on Black folks not knowing the law or not knowing what rights they may have. They have to let you go at some point, but if you sign papers to the extent that you want out of the psych ward, they will start civil commitment court proceedings and then they can pretty much control your life from that point forward. It’s akin to having gone to prison and then get out on probation, only civil commitment can be never ending. And if you don’t believe me, check out the court appeals docket in Minnesota. Much of it consists of cases whereas people who are under civil commitment are petitioning the appeals court to have that shit ended.

I know this because my cousin was under a civil commitment. And in every state that he has been in, they have tried that shit on him, but now he knows what to say if he’s ever placed on a psych ward. Know your rights! Know that the system of white supremacy is trying to catch you up in some shit at every turn. These whites ain’t fucking playing! If you didn’t know, now you know!

‘Fake’ Religion VS. ‘Real’ Coronavirus

Fake ass christians are flouting city and state COVID-19 directives banning crowds of more than 10 that were put in place in an attempt to rein in the coronavirus pandemic, but as usual, the foolish, brainwashed sheeple take no heed because the fake ass religious bullshit that they have been fed for too damn long has taken root and sent logical thought, fleeing.

A choir decided to go ahead with rehearsal. Now dozens of members have COVID-19 and two are dead

MOUNT VERNON, Wash. — With the coronavirus quickly spreading in Washington state in early March, leaders of the Skagit Valley Chorale debated whether to go ahead with weekly rehearsal.

Sixty singers showed up. A greeter offered hand sanitizer at the door, and members refrained from the usual hugs and handshakes.

Nearly three weeks later, 45 have been diagnosed with COVID-19 or ill with the symptoms, at least three have been hospitalized, and two are dead.

So tell me, who is singing now? And I suppose the fake ass christians are going to say, “It was their time. They are with the lord.” And to that I would respond, “How the fuck do YOU know?” Oh that’s right. Just how you know that there is some magical being beyond the stars that’s sitting somewhere handing down cases after cases of coronavirus just to test us and send some of us to meet this so-called ‘maker’ of ours; this magical being, is that about right?

Let me just clue you dumbasses in on something. If ‘god’ made you, then he also gave you a damn brain which should enable you to have the ability to think for yourselves and if a pandemic has been declared and those who are supposedly ALL in the know as to what to do to protect yourselves tell you to ‘distance yourself from others’ and who also issue ‘shelter in place’ orders, then that is what the hell you need to do. But do you? No! You believe that some magical being is going to protect your ass from your own stupidity in flouting the protocols that have been established to protect not only YOUR stupid ass from contracting coronavirus but also to protect those of us from your stupid coronavirus filled asses.

You don’t give a damn about your fellow so-called ‘humans’ because it is ALL about you and your magical being sitting up in some heavenly paradise awaiting YOUR stupid ass to join him. Go ahead! But you don’t get to take the rest of us out and along with you on YOUR ‘magical’ journey to the ‘rapture’. You don’t get to decide that the rest of us had better believe the bullshit lies spouted from pulpits ALL across this shithole from snake oil salesmen selling you fake ass snake oil in the form of a guaranteed spot in some mansions in the fucking sky with some magical being. If you want to believe in that shit, that’s on your dumb ass, but you don’t get to claim that you’re better than all others and so you get to flout the law and do as you please when we are supposed to be on lockdown.

I knew you damn phony ass, hypocrite nutcases would claim that your ‘religious freedoms’ were being denied you as an excuse to venture out because your damn asses are getting antsy from being cooped up with those little hellions you call kids. To hell with that. Your hellions trying your last nerve is NOT my problem, nor should it be the cause of me contracting coronavirus. You deal with that shit, in your fucking home!

And here we have another bunch of lunatic, religious nutcases that defied COVID-19 orders to lock yourself down; shelter in place!

Louisiana church defies COVID-19 order, holds Sunday services

CENTRAL, La. — Pentecostal preacher Tony Spell didn’t just stand before his congregation on Sunday in defiance of the governor’s order to stay home: He leaped into the pews, paraded, hugged and laid hands on worshipers’ foreheads in prayer.

Across Louisiana, the coronavirus has infected more than 3,500 people and led to 151 deaths as of Sunday, with one of the highest per-capita death rates in the country down the interstate in New Orleans. To limit its spread, Gov. John Bel Edwards banned gatherings of more than 50 people earlier this month and on March 22 issued a stay-at-home order.

And according to snake oil salesman, Tony Spell, “Churches are the last stable community institutions.” Seriously??!!! Oh, I guess, like Trump, he is a “stable genius.” I just cannot make this shit up. Churches are filled with the UNSTABLE! That is a proven fact! How the hell can you believe in and worship that which you have not seen and claim that you have faith in what you cannot see while at the same time, hating your neighbor, who you don’t even want to see???!!!

The claim is that people of ALL stripes and hues ‘worship’ at this snake oil salesman’s church, and yet, they ALL leave and return to segregated communities and so what ‘good’ does going to church do ANY of those hypocrites; those heathens? The Blacks go back to their parish. The whites go back to theirs and the snake oil salesman and his minions go back to theirs, only to come together to practice fake ass shit at the proper time on appointed days. And if ANY of you were getting any benefit from what this snake oil salesman was selling, it would show, but when you look around, is it? Hatred and animosity towards one another abounds in this shithole while these so-called religious snake oil salesmen drone on and on about, what, I don’t know because it is quite apparent that there is no ‘love’ going around because if it were, it would surely be in evidence. I don’t see hide nor hair of that shit and neither do you brain dead hypocrites that’s sitting up in church listening to lies and speaking gibberish and calling it “speaking in tongues.” You sound stupid and you look dumb and ignorant because you are. But at the same time, you are killing people by spreading a virus that is highly contagious. You christian shits are like some Jim Jones shit; motherfuckers sitting up drinking the poisoned kool-aid and dropping dead, but in this case, taking others out with you.

The law needs to shut your asses down because it is quite obvious that you are too starstruck by some make believe, fake ass shit to have any sense about you stupid shits whatsoever. And for those of you who need further proof of how fucked up these so-called christian ‘holy men’ are, read this shit while I fucking weep!

Liberty University’s Jerry Falwell Jr. Gets Holy Hell As Students Fall Sick

 

Falwell partially reopened the school, and now nearly a dozen students reportedly have symptoms.

Jerry Falwell Jr. last week partially reopened his Liberty University ― an evangelical Christian school in Lynchburg, Virginia ― despite the spread of the coronavirus. Now, The New York Times reports that nearly a dozen students have symptoms that could suggest infection ― and Falwell is facing the wrath of both parents and critics.Falwell has been a coronavirus conspiracy theorist, claiming an “overreaction” to the threat is really an attempt to make President Donald Trump look bad.“Impeachment didn’t work, and the Mueller report didn’t work, and Article 25 didn’t work,” he said earlier this month on Fox News, which has consistently given voice to conspiracy theories. “And so maybe now this is their next attempt to get Trump.”

This little shithole burg is as ill equipped to handle a pandemic as a fly is ill equipped to fell a charging bull. But this dumbass, clueless, racist, greedy as all hell snake oil salesman Jerry Falwell Jr., has unleashed a damn pandemic on what amounts to Hootersville. There will be so many deaths from this virus in this burg, the numbers will astound even the most hard hearted. Those of you who know nothing of Lynchburg should know  this, the dumb shits that graduate from nursing school here should never be allowed inside a clinic that’s set up for the express purpose of healing sick gnats, much less do they have  the medical knowledge and tools to aid sick people in healing. The vast majority of Lynchburg residents go outside of Lynchburg to get their medical care because WE know that WE are fucking DOOMED if we get any health care in this shithole burg!

But this fake ass christian conservative Trump asshole eater, Jerry Falwell Jr., has unleashed hell on the residents of Lynchburg, many of which are poor and are destined to succumb to coronavirus. And what’s more, Falwell will be glad because he has ALWAYS been against poor people in Lynchburg. He even raised the rent on a grocery store that was in a high density poverty area that Lynchburg’s poor used to frequent to do their grocery shopping. The grocery store had to close down. He knowingly did this so that Lynchburg’s poor would be in a food desert. And now he wants to screech and shout about how Liberty’s students hand out bags of food and some rags to Lynchburg’s poor. What the hell is that going to do when people are  trying to breathe and can’t because they have been ravaged by the coronavirus? Falwell knew what would happen when he re-opened Liberty University because he is very much aware of the state of ‘health care’ in this shithole burg and who was already dying due to a lack of properly trained medical staff at ALL Lynchburg area medical facilities and that includes both hospitals; Lynchburg General and Virginia Baptist.

If you could see what the vast majority of people look like down here, someone would call for that bastard’s head on a platter because as bad as these people look now, the shit is about to go the fuck off in a horrific way down here. Yeah! This is what religious bullshitters do for you! This is what happens when these christian shits defy orders to put shit on lockdown. The Falwells have ALWAYS been treated as if they are above the law and that is why this scum sucking bottom feeder is getting away with this shit! He is no different from Trump; both are two sides of the same coin. Both called coronavirus a hoax and both claimed that coronavirus was just another setup to cost Trump his re-election bid. Both motherfuckers are insane! And yet, neither is locked up and kept from the public. Both are given a platform on which to continue to fuck innocent people up without any consequences whatsofucking ever.

Those Falwells have had Lynchburg locked down for far too long. This shithole burg is run more like a fiefdom than a city whereas rich whites lock this shit down and no one had better say a fucking word and the vast majority do NOT! Why the fuck do you think that this blog is filled with the fucked up shit that’s happened to me since I’ve been back here? My ass was born here and I am so fucking NOT bragging! In the entire state of Virginia, Lynchburg has the HIGHEST EVICTION RATES! Why is that when we’ve got all of these fake ass conservative christians every goddamn where spouting bullshit?!!! Because they are FAKE, that’s fucking why! And all they care about is money, money, money and the power that comes with having loads of money. They don’t give a shit for ANYONE and that includes their own damn families because have you noticed that no one has said a damn thing about Falwell’s brother, Jonathan? When Jerry Falwell died, he left the purse strings in the hands of Jerry Falwell Jr. And that greedy, lying, racist bastard keeps a tight rein on every damn thing, even on Jonathan. Jonathan better ‘preach’ at that church and otherwise, shut the fuck up AND he does! Everyone in this racist burg is TERRIFIED to speak out against the Falwells, who by the way, obtained their fucking money from running bootleg liquor. They put a lockdown on that shit and became rich enough to start spouting religious bullshit and then off to the races it was. Everyone down here knows the  truth and everyone is too fucking scared of these whackos to do a goddamn thing about them. Many people just move to Madison Heights or further into Amherst to get away from underneath the boot of these damn hypocrite Falwells. And that ain’t no fucking lie!

Every single time Falwell opens his racist, greedy piehole, he is LYING! And he is lying now by saying that no Liberty University students have coronavirus. YES.THEY.DO. And soon, the rest of Lynchburg is going to have it too and there will be MASS CREMATIONS. And if you think I’m being overly dramatic, continue to watch for news that will soon be coming out of Lynchburg. I don’t give a damn about what happens to these rich white assholes down here, but the poor Black people are going to be dropping like flies.

You goddamn fake ass, sanctimonious, holier-than-thou, religious heathens, drop the fuck dead already and take your goddamn snake oil salesmen with you! You have caused enough harm and sadly, many Black people are following YOUR goddamn lead because I saw plenty of Black motherfuckers decked out in their Sunday church rags yesterday and I just shook my head because even now, they are NOT heeding ‘shelter in place’ orders. But since they are SO ready to head for ‘the rapture’, know this, your asses are headed for DEAD, I do know that! Where the hell else you go, do you even fucking know? Hell no, you don’t! And if Falwell truly believed in Jesus Christ, he would NOT be such a racist, greedy, fake ass christian piece of shit because according to the Buybull, Jesus said, “Give up your worldly goods and follow me!” Does that look like what the fuck Falwell and ALL the other rich white so-called christian conservatives are doing? Fuck NO!

Furthermore, this is what I think of your religious bullshit, you fake ass christian heathens!

…About A Needle’s Eye…

Who cares about a needle’s eye?
Eternal wealth is what I crave.
I do not care about the poor.
Let them lie in a pauper’s grave.

As you attend your service to god,
You believe in him, you say.
But if you had my wealth,
to whom would you still pray?

Cease with the pretense,
that religion is all about love.
You know there is no heaven,
and no deity from above.

Whenever sheep awaken,
a shepherd is produced,
To keep the sheep in line.
another coma is thus induced.

An awakened world is dangerous,
so we invented a fairy tale,
to keep from you the fact,
that there really is no hell.

Could you be kept in line,
if you were wide awake,
and not afraid of any god,
that religion could ever make?

Written by,
Shelby I. Courtland
©2014 Shelby I. Courtland

Matthew 19:24- Matthew 19:29
And Jesus said to His disciples, “Truly I say to you, it is hard for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven. 24″Again I say to you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.”

25When the disciples heard this, they were very astonished and said, “Then who can be saved?”…

26And looking at them Jesus said to them, “With people this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

27Then Peter said to Him, “Behold, we have left everything and followed You; what then will there be for us?

28And Jesus said to them, “Truly I say to you, that you who have followed Me, in the regeneration when the Son of Man will sit on His glorious throne, you also shall sit upon twelve thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel.…
“And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or farms for My name’s sake, will receive many times as much, and will inherit eternal life.…

Now, ask yourself why the Walmart Waltons are holding tight to their wealth. Ask yourself why politicians who avidly profess to being conservative Christians, continue to sell their ‘soul’ for money and tightly clinch to their chest, the bribes and kickbacks they get from lobbyists. Why are Bill and Melinda Gates deemed such philanthropists but they are NOT so filled with love that they are concerned about ‘getting through the eye of the needle’ that Jesus Christ supposedly talked about?

Why do the rich seem to not concern themselves with a so-called ‘afterlife’? It is because they don’t BELIEVE in some unseen deity beyond the stars. They know better! But you’ve got to be kept in line, praying to god to fill your empty pantry so that you can feed your children while corporate executives swill the finest wines and eat the choicest of meats and delicacies. Why are they not concerned about getting to ‘heaven’, entering the Pearly Gates, meeting up with St. Peter, ‘getting through the eye of a needle’?

It is because this is all a lie! A big, gigantic lie to keep the sheep, docile with the hope that some deity is going to reward them for the hardships that they endure on this planet and not look at those who have hoarded all the wealth and rise up! Religion is a tool to control people and I’ve got to say, it IS working!

Wake up people! No one is going to rescue you or save you, but you! Stop allowing yourself to be controlled. The shit that the ‘poor man’s Pope adorns himself with could feed a small starving village in Africa, but you don’t see him refusing to wear it. If Jesus supposedly walked around, attired in a robe with a rope for a belt, is the Pope any better than ‘Jesus’? What is your bishop, reverend, pastor, rabbi driving? A horse and buggy or a Rolls-Royce Sweptail.? Are they walking? Exactly!

Here’s another gem!

“Jesus! A Minute Of Your Time!”

 

Some nights, when I cannot fall asleep,
I do not ask the Lord my soul to keep.
Once I believed, but I do not believe anymore.
He never heals the sick or feeds the poor.

His ‘holy’ men just take the tithes from fools,
who by rights should get a refund from their schools,
for believing in a fairy tale of such bull,
and pretending that an empty cup is full.

If I once believed in God, that ship has sailed,
nor can I pray to a man they say was nailed.
For if they did exist, why have they ignored the cries
of all the ‘holy men’ who spout tall tales and lies?

Their brainwashed flock, they will believe,
those who get paid to lie, con and deceive.
And who promise that the sick will all be healed
and that Blacks will not be jailed or shot and killed.

Next Sunday, look at the picture on the wall.
Kneel before it and in a deep, southern drawl,
say, “Jesus, a minute of your time!”
“Why is Black skin at the scene of every crime?”
“What wrong did we ever do to you,
“that would make you hate us for it too?”
 “I listen to your word, oh Lord on high!”
 “So once again, I have to ask you why?”
 “If you exist, and there really is no sign,
at how much evil, will you finally draw the line?”

Written by,
Shelby I. Courtland
©2016 Shelby I. Courtland

Black folks, you ought to KNOW better! Seriously!!!!! Look at the state of Black America. But with all of these fucking churches, why the fuck is Black America so fucked up? You can’t understand why? Because your church hands out some damn outdated cans of beans, it’s doing something, is that it? And why the fuck are you believing in some damn white man’s god? No white man means you any good and why the hell you don’t know THAT shit by now, just amazes me! But keep believing in the white man’s fake ass ‘god’ and you’ll find yourselves wishing you hadn’t. And that ain’t no lie for when has the white man EVER meant us ANY good? Yeah! You think on THAT! And think about the plight of the Indian in this shithole and  take the shit from there!

 

Outrage After Two White Texas Cops Are Pictured On Horseback Leading A Handcuffed Black Homeless Man Through The Streets By A ROPE!

What the hell??!!!!

This shit is still happening in the year 2019. You would think the man was an escaped slave being dragged back to his ‘OWNER’, another white man! For the love of !!!!!!! Fucking seriously???!!!!

I don’t even know why I am surprised at seeing this, what with every damn thing else that’s going down. This shithole is done for. I read just yesterday that the super rich are starting to hoard money and run for the hills. Not only that, but the republicans are resigning left and RIGHT! A bigot took to Twitter to announce that the Republican party is racist as hell and he was promptly told to leave the Republican party . There have been three mass shootings in a matter of days making the last one, the 200th of this year and we are only just now into August. Two countries have issued travel warnings against coming to the U.S. because of gun violence, namely in Baltimore, Detroit and Albuquerque.

And now we come to this!

Police in Texas have sparked outrage after pictures emerged showing two white officers on horseback leading a black man through the street by a rope on Saturday.

Galveston Police issued an apology on Monday after the shocking picture surfaced on social media, prompting a fierce backlash over its apparent connotations of slavery and civil rights issues.

The photograph shows Donald Neely, 43, being transported by Officer Patrick Brosch and Officer A. Smith from 306 22nd St to the Mounted Patrol Unit on 21st and Market.

The man is mentally ill and was only arrested for trespassing and so why was there a need for them to drag this man through the streets as though he was an escaped slave being dragged back to his Massa on the plantation??!! This is a clear example of the fact that American descendants of slaves are just as enslaved as our ancestors. How the hell does that look like we are free??!!! This is the year 2019 and yet, looking at the picture, how is it any different from the 1600s when the original slaves were treated in this manner? It isn’t! This shit has probably been done more times than I can shake a stick at, but it just so happened to have been recorded, THIS time! Does it look like we are off the goddamn plantation??!! Hell fucking no! And yet, some motherfuckers want to take me to task for having no feelings, thoughts or prayers for others who CHOOSE to come to this racist hellhole and get fucked up??!!! AGAIN, others CHOSE to come here. Our Black asses did not and to think that I have got room in my heart for others when our plight is still the equivalent of our forefathers plight is too damn much to digest. How the hell I am not sitting somewhere in a padded room with a wrap around jacket on is a complete and utter mystery to me.

So to those of you out there who think that I have time to give a damn about what’s happening to some immigrants, are you fucking serious??!! Myself and those who look like me are dealing with the shit that you see in the above picture! So take a good long hard ass look at that picture and tell me that American descendants of slaves should have more than enough sympathy, empathy and compassion to go around! I fucking wish you would! We are subjected to THAT shit, day in and day out and yet we are supposed to engage in hand wringing while flinging ourselves on the damn floor over some folks who are themselves, getting fucked up by whitey pasty ass! What they need to do is listen to THEIR governments and stay the fuck out of this racist, violent ass shithole! There ain’t a goddamn thing here for anyone that is not pasty assed! You can’t fucking see that??!! What the hell’s the matter with you??!! A goddamn blind and deaf mute that’s been planted can still see this shit!! And his ass done woke the fuck up and is tunneling to cross the goddamn ocean to get away from this shit because he sure as hell can’t fucking rest in peace!! I am beyond outraged over this shit! And yet, it’s ALL good because the goddamn police department has issued a worthless, useless ass apology(but only because the shit was recorded). And of course they had to include in the article that the police chief is Black…..like that fucking helps that shit look good Like hell!! I don’t give a flying damn about that shit! His fucking coon head ass don’t mean shit to me because a Black cop is nothing to me because his sell-out ass has joined whitey pasty ass in helping to fuck us up!

That picture is the exact equivalent of two Klan motherfuckers rounding up a runaway slave and returning him to Massa so that Massa can cut one of his ears off or even a foot to make sure that his slave doesn’t escape again! But he sure as hell would be whipped to within an inch of his life and we ALL know this to be true!

And for the government of Uruguay to post a travel warning against traveling to Baltimore, well that shit is too little, too late because pretty soon, the population of those from south of the border is going to be on par with the population count as it pertains to how many Black people live in Baltimore. The Latino population is so huge in Baltimore, that when I lived there two years ago, the Comcast technician told me that Latinos receive a Comcast discount just for being Latino. How fucking kind and thoughtful of fucking racist Comcast! Not to mention, I was just in Baltimore a couple of weeks ago, and I could not turn around without running into a Latino. So the government of Uruguay is a bit late in issuing a travel warning because those from South and Central America are all up in Baltimore. So shut the fuck up! Yes, Baltimore is dangerous, but so is El Paso, TX and Parkland, FL and Dayton, OH and Gilroy, CA and Virginia Beach, VA and Aurora, CO and Thousand Oaks, CA and Pittsburgh, PA and Las Vegas, NV and Orange County, FL and Ft. Lauderdale, FL and Burlington, WA and Orlando, FL and San Bernardino, CA and Colorado Springs, CO and Roseburg, OR and Chattanooga, TN and Charleston, SC and Isla Vista, CA and Ft. Hood, TX and Washington, DC and Newtown, CT and Santa Monica, CA and Brookfield, WI and Minneapolis, MN and Oak Creek, WI and Oakland, CA and Seal Beach, CA and Manchester, CT and Huntsville, AL and Binghamton, NY and Dekalb, IL and Omaha, NB and Blacksburg, VA and Salt Lake City, UT and need I continue? Because I could since these are all mass shootings that have, as you can see, occurred all over this violent shithole!! So don’t sit somewhere on your stupid, racist ass and point the finger and Baltimore or Detroit or even Albuquerque as if those cities are the worst in this shithole. Every city in every state in this shithole is dangerous since no one has any idea when some damn Nazi is going to go the fuck off and get to shooting. The crime in Baltimore is due to poverty, a lack of jobs and the drug game is the only game in town, but they are not sitting all up on social media posting about how they are going to amass a shitload of weapons because they’re fucking white nationalists with an agenda and that agenda is hate and so get to shooting indiscriminately in a crowd and voila, another mass shooting!

Take another good long fucking look at the above picture. If anyone should get to shooting, it’s Black folks. But that shit’s not who we are; killing multiple people because they are not pasty-assed. That’s for the pale-assed variety because they are just too privileged and white and racist and bored and that’s what gets their jollies off like nothing else can! So yeah immigrants, welcome to OUR world!

Attorney: Mentally ill woman left alone in jail cell while giving birth — Canoe — Kreb Talk

FORT LAUDERDALE, Fla. — A pregnant Florida woman was left alone in a jail cell for nearly seven hours after asking for help and eventually gave birth alone, her attorney said Friday. Public defender Howard Finkelstein demanded an immediate review of medical and isolation practices in a letter to Broward County Sheriff Gregory Tony. “I […]

Finkelstein said his 34-year-old client complained of contractions and bleeding in the early morning hours of April 10. Jail staff attempted to contact an on-call doctor rather than take the woman to a hospital, the letter said. The doctor advised that he would check on the inmate when he arrived at the jail.

via Attorney: Mentally ill woman left alone in jail cell while giving birth — Canoe — Kreb Talk

While Rep. Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez, D-N.Y., was touring a southern border facility, screeching and complaining about women there having to drink toilet water while enduring other harsh conditions, an Amerikkkan descendant of slaves was in a Florida jail on drug charges. She was also pregnant and had requested assistance because she was having contractions and was bleeding. The jail personnel merely “attempted to contact an on-call doctor rather than take the woman to a hospital.” The mentally ill, drug addicted Amerikkkan descendant of slaves eventually gave birth, alone in a jail cell. Who knows how long she had sat holding her newborn baby before a guard noticed that she was inside her cell holding a baby. Then and only then, was she taken, along with her baby, to the hospital.

Which case has garnered national and international attention? The southern border facility story, of course because what happens to Amerikkkan descendants of slaves is just ‘business as usual’ and so who gives a damn, right? Right! Certainly not the so-called ‘Black’ democratic contenders for president and certainly not the CBC(Congressional Black Caucus) because they are too far up whitey’s ass begging for donations for their campaigns and protecting the so-called front runners, Joe “I’m Stupid” Biden and Kamala “Yes I Am Black Enough” Harris.

One thing I can say for Ocasio-Cortez is that she will attempt to bring attention to the plight of those who speak one of the same languages she speaks, Spanish. Ocasio-Cortez’s father was born in the Bronx to a Puerto Rican family and her mother was born in Puerto Rico, hence why she could go to a southern border facility and find out from the illegal immigrant families being held there, and in their own words, just how they were being treated.  She also “accused half of all border agents of being wrapped up in a violent culture and questioned their treatment of illegal immigrant families. She also said the abhorrent abuse she witnessed was them on their best behavior.”

So tell me, what’s new? Whites have been abusing their victims for centuries. Who is surprised at what is going down inside those southern border facilities? Certainly not one Amerikkkan descendant of slaves because the majority of us have found ourselves inside a jail or prison hell and so we know firsthand just what those illegal immigrant families are enduring. But the difference is, even though this shithole has made it extremely difficult for those people to remain in their own countries thanks to sanctions, coups initiated by this shithole and the fucked up list is endless, those people still CHOSE to come here. The woman who gave birth to her baby in a jail cell did not choose to come here. Her ancestors were dragged here, kicking and screaming. Her ancestors were whipped, shackled, raped, beaten, molested, stripped and poked and prodded and bought and sold. Her ancestors were slaves and yet last month, Ocasio-Cortez “compared southern border detention facilities to Nazi concentration camps and received backlash from Holocaust survivors, and several high profile Democrats for going too far.”

What are prison hells? What the hell are jails? Nazi concentration camps! And please, a “Holocaust survivor,” bring your ass on up in here and screech and wail and complain about this all you want, but that shit don’t cut no ice with me! What was perpetrated against my ancestors does not pale in comparison to what these Nazis did to you. According to you, no one has suffered more on this planet than holocaust survivors. Well, I am pretty sure that if any one of my slave ancestors were alive today, they’d fucking duke it out with you over that claim. But at least you received reparations for your claim. Us, not at all. The only thing we are still receiving is enslavement, whippings, shackles, chains and brutality since there are almost three million Black bodies slaving away in FOR PROFIT PRISONS today! Amerikkkan descendants of slaves rank number one when it comes to horrifying statistics of disparities in health care, maternal mortality, infant mortality, employment, incarceration, addiction, homelessness, food insecurity and the fucked up list is endless. And so don’t screech and wail to me about your plight when myself and those who look like me have our own plight.

And now whitey pasty-ass has extended that plight to those south of the border who are coming here because of untenable living conditions in their home countries brought to them by, yep, you guessed it, whitey pasty-ass. Every damn body has got some no account whites to thank for why they’ve got a goddamn plight! We are ALL screeching and wailing from Puerto Rico to a concentration camp in Florida to a southern border concentration camp over what whites are doing to every being on this godforsaken planet while most politicians are begging corporations for donations and at the same time, talking about what they are going to do for the individual citizen if and when they get elected. Shut the fuck up! You ain’t going to do a damn thing for anybody! You’re going to fatten your goddamn wallets and take your ill-gotten gains and do exactly what Barack Obama and George W. Bush, George H.W. Bush and Bill Clinton did for us; take ALL our tax dollars and fund wars, wars and more wars while the shit hits the fan for every damn body, but especially for Amerikkkan descendants of slaves. And why those people south of the border are trying to come here is still a complete and utter mystery to me because they cannot be blind to what the whites are up to. There is nowhere to go to get away from those depraved parasites. And by coming into the belly of this goddamn beast, you are asking for it and that is why you’re being told to drink toilet water and eat dirt.

Why the hell do you think the whites are going to treat your asses any better than they do ours? Because some of your relatives own a Mexican restaurant? Or are you going to go and work for Uncle Gonzalez on his Taco Truck? Well, good luck getting out of that concentration camp on the southern border because I hear tell that the next largest group of incarcerated folks are Latinos. You wanna join them just as soon as you escape the concentration camp you’re in?

This is exactly why I try and re-blog the posts of others who look like me because we are the only ones who are telling our story; trying to get our voices heard. Everyone else has someone speaking FOR them, Amerikkkan descendants of slaves have no one to speak for us and I will be damned if I will sit somewhere and not call this shit out! If Black folks want to believe that any one of those worthless Black-assed motherfuckers who are trying to become president is going to do a damn thing for you, are you still believing that shit??!!! Because not one of them has visited a prison hell where sits millions of us and declared that to be their top priority in rectifying that shit. In fact, Kamala “I Am So Black” Harris is the reason why so many Amerikkkan descendants of slaves are sitting up in prison hells otherwise known as concentration camps. That debased bitch is not going to do a damn thing for any one of us despite her fucked up rhetoric and neither is Cory Booker or any other Black-assed or white-assed politician, for that matter. When.have.they.ever.

That poor mentally ill Black woman who just gave birth in a Florida jail hell did not belong there and she would not have been sitting up in there if she had been Becky or Scott or Ian and was from some rich suburb in Georgia. She would have been sent to rehab for her addiction and given all the treatment she needed to overcome a heroin addiction. Amerikkkan descendants of slaves are still being incarcerated for their addictions, are being left to give birth on their own while incarcerated and mentally ill and suffering from withdrawal and yet the national and international focus is on some illegal immigrants being likened to sitting up in ‘concentration camps’ on the southern border. This entire goddamn stolen ‘nation’ IS a concentration camp for Amerikkkan descendants of slaves. What the hell else is it??!!!

Me? Celebrate Memorial Day? Not Bloody Likely!

 

On a blog I posted in April of 2018, titled, “Americans Are Too Stupid To Realize That America Is A Fake Ass Disneyland! Smoke and Mirrors, People! Smoke and Mirrors! Read The Comments On This Article And Get A Damn Clue,” a comment posted on that blog made me sit and think for a spell. Below is the comment from qnubian528.

“People who aren’t from America had always see US “the big apple,the land of the thousand opportunities!”
That’s bullshit! What I always understood isn’t country of thousands opportunities,where “inequality” is a host,you can’t call civilize country where its own people can’t have free access on healthcare,but you can have free access to guns or every accessories that can kill human being!
Wow America country of thousands opportunities one of the bullshit I’ve ever heard!”

This bears repeating: “civilize country where its own people can’t have free access on healthcare, but you can have free access to guns or every accessories that can kill human being!”

That is so indicative of what this fucked up country stands for, it ain’t even funny. And millions do not have access to free healthcare and for those who do have access to healthcare, that healthcare is substandard. Only the rich can get great healthcare. The rest of us are dealing with healthcare that is comparable to what passed for healthcare in 1810 since what the fuck has changed as it relates to healthcare since? More women, especially Black women are dying in childbirth in what is supposed to be a ‘developed’ country than ever before, but in all actuality is more like a third world country. How in the world are people dying from childbirth in America? That makes no sense whatsoever, not unless it is ALL done by design and then it makes perfect sense.

And what about the shit that’s always on the news, the fact that yet another American has gone on a rampage and murdered multiple people and after the fact, law enforcement then finds a stash of assault weapons, multiple rounds of ammunition and enough guns and ammo to kill thousands. Meanwhile, the shooter’s mental health is questioned.

But now it is time to celebrate why hundreds of thousands of Americans have died in so many wars, I’ve lost count. It is time to celebrate the fact that this country loves war. America is in love with war and don’t say that it is not because if America was not in love with war, why then in the year 2019, is this country STILL at war and STILL trying to find some country to be at war with? War is ALL this country has ever known. The first ‘illegal’ colonizers warred with the Indians for this land and that set the standard; if you want something, go to war. If you want someone else’s land, go to war. If you want to build the country on the backs of another continent’s people, battle those people for their people, subdue them and then take the people from that continent. If you want some country’s oil, go to war and kill them and take over their oil. If you want an American company to be able to strip another country of its natural resources, go to war against that country. For whatever contrived reason, this country MUST be at war.

However, I refuse to celebrate war because that is exactly what we are doing when we celebrate Memorial Day. We are honoring, not a need for people to have died in wars, we are honoring the fact that people fought in elective wars. And what does ‘elective’ mean? It means we ‘chose’ to go to war. We did not have to, but because this nation is a nation of warmongers and war hawks, this is why we celebrate war. Don’t hand me that bullshit about how we are honoring our ‘war dead’ since they did not have to die. They did not have to suit up and be sent to foreign shores to die over an elective war; a war of choice. It has been stated that this country has been at war for over 220 of its 242 year history. This is what we are celebrating and believe me, that is nothing to celebrate. You people are sick and twisted who go around celebrating this shit with parades and cookouts and some more shit!

People don’t have free healthcare because our money is being spent on killing people and claiming what’s not ours to claim. We glorify guns and screech about the 2nd Amendment as if that is the only Amendment that’s worth a damn! All other Amendments pale in comparison to the 2nd Amendment especially seeing as how the 13th Amendment did not abolish slavery for if it did, there would not be over 2.3 million Black slaves sitting all up in prisons on bullshit drug charges, slaving away making shit for free to be sold by corporations and quite frankly, the 1st Amendment don’t mean shit either since what the hell is free speech these days when people can be jailed for publishing the fact that this shithole committed untold war crimes and crimes against humanity and free speech is being curtailed even as I type this? If some platform that I use to get my message out has a problem with my message, then my message gets shut down. And we all know that only whites own the platforms that people use to be heard. The news coverage is brought to us by white faces. Those who own the networks are all white. Those who own the newspapers and magazines are all white. Every media platform is owned by whites and whites have long been known for re-writing history to gloss over the vile ass shit they do and they are at it to this very day. And of course, whites are behind the celebrating of war with this Memorial Day celebration bullshit whereas we celebrate people who have died fighting in elective wars by hosting parades, throwing cookouts and watching baseball games. So go to a parade, munch down on a hotdog and then attend a baseball game, but don’t forget to take advantage of all those Memorial Day savings at the few remaining brick and mortar stores or better yet, order some plastic shit on Amazon and demand that it get to you the same fucking day because you’re celebrating war!

This bears repeating! “”Americans Are Too Stupid To Realize That America Is A Fake Ass Disneyland! Smoke and Mirrors, People! Smoke and Mirrors!” And I am quite sure that there are thousands of stupid ass Americans who will be lined up at Disneyland and at Disney World to celebrate war! And when Disneyland and Disney World close for the evening, that fake ass Cinderella will drag her tired ass to Motel 6 until her ‘magical’ shift begins the next day. Don’t fucking think about that or about the fact that those workers at Disneyland and Disney World are living like shit! Their lives are certainly not the stuff of dreams, but of nightmares of food insecurity, no healthcare, back breaking work, long hours in the heat and rain, motel living quarters and thankless Disneyland patrons.

Me? Celebrate Memorial Day? Not bloody likely!

War Is Always Such A Blessing!

War is always such a blessing
It never is distressing or depressing.
I know all too well that this is true.
War has been good for me and you.

You proudly give your lives up for the rich.
For us, life never is a bitch.
In a blaze of glory, you go out.
And really, that’s what it’s all about.

The drone operators are so brave
as they send little children to their grave.
Since the world has become a battleground,
the drums of war make a lovely throbbing sound.

Teach your sons and your daughters about their duty.
And one day, when they are dead, we’ll make a movie.
It will honor their brave and noble deeds.
The wounded, we shall see to all their needs.

Through war, we bring peace unto this earth.
And though you break out in dubious peals of mirth,
the last laugh will always be on you,
for none of what is written is ever true.

When we put a lethal weapon in your hand,
and send you to die in a foreign land,
your life means nothing, you should know,
but you never give pause, you just go.

War is not only just a blessing,
to us, it is also quite refreshing,
that you are so willingly prostituted,
and it’s all because you are just too stupid,
to understand that if it were not for you,
no drone would ever strike on cue!

Written by,
Shelby I. Courtland
©2015 Shelby I. Courtland

Yes indeed, war IS ALWAYS such a blessing! War is a blessing because we get a day off to attend parades, eat hot dogs, drink beer and be thankful over how ‘free’ we are that we can still board an airplane after having been molested and radiated. We are free!

Yes indeed, war IS ALWAYS such a blessing! War is a blessing because we get to sit on our fat asses and forget about all the people who were killed by our sons protecting what? Freedom? We don’t have ANY freedom! Try not going through security to board an airplane and your ass will land in jail so fast, you won’t even have time to collect your wallet. Try protesting longer than your ‘permit’ allows and you’ll find your ass in jail so fast, your head will be spinning. Try lounging around on a sidewalk while homeless and see how free your ass is. You’ll be locked up before you can count to two. Try selling some un-taxed cigarettes on a New York street and if you’re a descendant of slaves, you’ll be choked to death and your killer will walk free. Try being a child descendant of slaves playing in a park with a TOY gun and you’re dead, two seconds after the official slave patrols pull up on you! Try driving down the goddamn street and you’ll end up dead, hanged in a Texas jail because you’re a Black woman. Try going to the hospital because you feel ill and you’re Black-assed, you’ll end up in the morgue. Yeah, wars are fought to protect NO freedoms that we go on and on about since we love the illusion of freedom which is why we love Disneyland and Disney World. We love our illusions! War is for other people to fight! But you’re fine because you’ve got a ticket to Disneyland!

Yes indeed, war IS ALWAYS such a blessing for the warmongers and war hawks who are in bed with the makers of the war weapons(Lockheed Martin, Boeing and Crew), you know who the warmongers are. They are AmeriKKKa’s politicians; Barack ‘Nobel Peace Prize Insane’ Obadroner, KillarE ‘Whitewater scandal Benghazigate Emailgate Big ass Jockstrap’ Clinton, Bernie “I believe in the drone program” Sanders, Combover “Build A Wall to Keep THOSE Illegals Out, Never mind us pink-assed motherfuckers, Indians? What Indians?” TrumpDump! And who makes the war machine possible? Why, our sons and soon…our daughters because the military generals have said that it is high time women saw some combat action. And guess why women are now necessary for the military. Can’t guess? You’re celebrating WHY! The ‘troops’ are dead, dying and committing suicide from being fucked up in the head after having been deployed too many goddamn times! You don’t get that? No, of course you don’t because all you know is that today gave you an excuse to sit back and indulge in too much alcohol, hot dogs and sun! Burn motherfuckers! Burn! Because one of these days, your turn is coming. So, eat, drink and be merry since you don’t really give a damn for the war dead because if you did, the last thing you would be doing in honor of their memory, is eating, drinking and sitting at a goddamn parade!

And when the troops do make it back to America from having whored themselves out to the warmongers and war hawks and they need some anti-suicide help, where is your ass after you finish sitting at the parade grounds, stuffing your face on hotdogs? You are nowhere to be found to man the suicide hotlines for those fucked up in the head soldiers that make it back.

“VA Suicide Hotline! Hold, Please!”

The VA, has been swamped with calls since opening in 2007. The volume increased from fewer than 10,000 in 2007 to more than 500,000 last year, according to a recent Government Accountability Office report.

A 2010 calculation by the VA estimates that 22 veterans kill themselves each day. The VA, which has not updated that estimate, says the hotline “rescues” 30 veterans from suicide each day.

Some workers handle only one to five calls each day and leave before their shifts end even though phone lines have gotten busier, the emails say. As a result, 35% to 50% of the calls roll over to back-up centers where workers have less training to deal with the emotional problems of former service members.

So, the people who are trained to deal with potential suicides handle only one to five calls a day? For real? And after having listened to one suicidal former service member, they are out the door and oh what a great day it is, eh? Then, those who are on backup are sitting somewhere looking cross-eyed for lack of training or know-how in dealing with the ’emotional problems’ that they are hearing from the former servicemen. Go figure!

You sit somewhere on your stupid ass and think that “thank you for your service” gets the job done when you know damn well that a fucked up in the head veteran needs more than your worthless ass ‘thank yous’. What the hell are they supposed to do with a “thank you?” Cure their mental illness with it? House themselves with it? Stop drinking because of it? Take it and use it as a prosthetic? You brain dead, dumb as all hell Americans make me sick with your reasoning that you should always be able to take the easy way out. As long as you don’t have to suit up and kill someone you’ve never met, what’s the big deal? Well the big deal is that this is yet another reason why you are going to pay for this shit. This is why your shit is continuously getting flooded and hit with tornadoes and some more shit because you don’t give a damn about anybody besides your own worthless hide. I am SO very glad that millions of you are sitting somewhere moaning and wailing over the fact that life as you know it has ended. And I am SO very glad that millions more of you are soon to join them and so believe me, you have absolutely nothing to celebrate! I guarantee it! Fuck you and fuck your Memorial Day celebrations! They and you are meaningless!

The Forgotten Tale of How Black Psychiatrists Helped Make Sesame Street, the children’s television show entranced preschoolers—and helped teach impressionable black kids. — The Most Revolutionary Act

Photo Illustration by The Daily Beast/Photos Getty In the wake of the assassination of Martin Luther King Jr. on April 4, 1968, a newly formed group called the Black Psychiatrists of America began to challenge their white colleagues to think about racism in a new way. Its members had been discussing for some time the […]

via The Forgotten Tale of How Black Psychiatrists Helped Make Sesame Street, the children’s television show entranced preschoolers—and helped teach impressionable black kids. — The Most Revolutionary Act

Below is a comment I posted on this article.

“There is no way that Black people, who are mentally ill, can go to whites and expect and receive help because the main reason why many Black people are mentally ill is due to the horrendous racism that we are exposed to, constantly. How then are we supposed to get relief from the very ones who are why we are mentally ill?

When I was in Minnesota, my cousin was seeing white mental health ‘care’ professionals and they filled him so full of poisons, I went to that mental health ‘care’ facility and threw fits. I pointed out the obvious in that the place was filled to bursting with descendants of slaves who had been sent to that facility by the courts which are set up to set up descendants of slaves. I pointed out the fact that there were no Black doctors or therapists on staff and I even filed a complaint with the board. I’ll have you know that the next time I visited that establishment with my cousin, he was asked if he wanted to see a BLACK psychiatrist and a BLACK therapist. There had been none before that time! I refuse to sit somewhere and allow us to get mistreated. If we don’t speak up for ourselves, we will continue to be mistreated and I am having none of it!

He now has to see a Black psychiatrist via Skype since no Black psychiatrist in their right mind would come down here to Hillbilly Hollow, but he requested to see a Black psychiatrist and even though it is via Skype, that is who he is seeing. He requested a Black case manager and that is who he has. His primary care doctor is Black and everyone he sees for his care is Black. We insist upon it and we ALWAYS will. If one refuses to come to us, we come to them or via Skype, but we would have it no other way! And it shouldn’t be any other way! And Black psychiatrists are very much aware of why Black people request them! They know the deal! Just as those depicted in this article knew the deal. It may be a ‘forgotten tale’, but this shit cannot be ‘forgotten’ by us since we still suffer from untold atrocities from being caught up in a system we wanted no part of because we did not immigrate here, our ancestors were dragged here. This shit’s not on us!”

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American descendants of slaves, I cannot stress to you enough that enough is enough! If we don’t stand up for ourselves, no one else will. We are not here to win a popularity contest and I don’t care who hates my guts, I am going to tell it like it is. When I see fucked up shit, I call it out! If you don’t, you will continue to get shitted on. Get up off that stupid dumbass Facebook and Twitter shit and take a stand against the shit that’s shoved down our throats, daily. You see that I don’t take shit shoved down my throat and you don’t have to either. Whites ain’t fucking playing with us and I ain’t fucking playing with them. You have no idea how much you can accomplish if you simply stand up for yourself and believe me, when you do, you are also helping someone else who looks just like you! Try it! You’ll find out just how right I am. The white devils count on us thinking that we’ve got no choice but to put up with their shit. Show them that you ain’t no punk ass bitch that’ll put up with their racism, prejudice, bigotry and some mo shit! I don’t tolerate their shit and you don’t have to either! To hell with them and their shit!

Why do you think that this article is titled, “The forgotten tale of how Black psychiatrists helped make Sesame Street, the children’s television show entranced preschoolers-and helped teach impressionable Black kids?” It is because everything that we do that’s wonderful is to be ‘forgotten’, overlooked, ignored. The only shit we are to be recognized for is for being criminals and drug addicts, but that’s not who or what we are.

When I lived in Minnesota, I lived in a small town in the middle of no goddamn where that didn’t even have bus service. When I looked at my first electric bill, I noticed that the bill contained a ‘transit tax’. Now, I’m thinking, “What the hell am I paying a ‘transit tax’ for when there is no ‘transit’ out in the middle of this godforsaken nowhere? I picked up the phone and called Metro Transit and asked about that shit. Guess the fuck what! Those worthless white-assed motherfuckers had decided to bring mass transit to the area and after multiple plans and charts and drafts had been drawn up, decided that it just wasn’t feasible to bring bus service to that area. And yet, they continued to charge everyone who lived in that small town, a ‘transit tax’ even though those white fuckers had scrapped bringing transit to the town. Now, this town had mostly white asses in it and yet they were too stupid to look at their electric bill, see that they were paying a ‘transit tax’ and yet there was not a bus or light rail or subway stop any goddamn where! You see, this is how stupid whites really are and yet, they try and portray us as the damn dummies! I screeched and hollered and threatened to go door to door and tell every damn body in that town that they had been paying a transit tax for FOUR, that’s 4 goddamn years for nothing! I told MNDOT(Minnesota Department of Transportation and Metro Transit that I was filing charges of fraud against them for defrauding people out of their money since that is exactly what they did. Guess the fuck what! Transit was introduced to that goddamn city and I was called by the City Administrator and was told that “thanks to you, bus service is being started up and that there was going to be a ribbon cutting ceremony and that I would be requested to speak.” When the bitch found out that I was Black, all that shit changed. The white bitch that they had paid hundreds of thousands of dollars to for her land on which to build the Park and Ride, was featured in the newspaper. The Park and Ride was named for her ass and I was never even an afterthought. But even so, when Metro Transit came in, they took away that goddamn sign with her fucking name on it and put up “Metro Transit Park And Ride.” So the city authorized and paid for, with our tax dollars, a big ass brick sign with her name and ‘Park and Ride’ chiseled on it, all for nothing. Whites are lethal and ferocious in their fucking racism!

Now do you see how fucking racist whites are?!!! Were you ever in ANY doubt because if so, I’ve erased any and all of it! Those racist bastards never publicly acknowledged that I was the reason bus service was brought to that area and they never will, but I got the satisfaction of pissing off multiple whites while at the same time, helping the few Black people who lived in that area have reliable transportation to and from Minneapolis, MN. This is what we can do Black folks when we put our mind to it! And even though we don’t get recognized for our accomplishments and achievements, don’t let that deter you from trying. It has never deterred me and it won’t. Those white bastards want us to give up when we never receive recognition for the great and good things we do, but it ain’t about their awards and shit, it’s about the fact that we don’t give up and we help one another out! So keep on keeping on, but you ain’t going to get it done by sitting all up on Facebook and Twitter. That shit is meaningless. Do something meaningful for a change and you can make a difference! Believe me, I know!

Insight: Supreme Court Decides Not to Hear Case Where a Racist Juror Sentenced Man to Death — Kreb Talk

https://www.theroot.com/supreme-court-declines-to-hear-case-of-man-sentenced-to-1833390675 Imagine if the tables were turned on this story and the Supreme Court was told that one Black juror, who sat in Jeremiah Wright’s church two Sundays in a row, sentenced a white defendant to death who killed a playground full of Black children.

via Insight: Supreme Court Decides Not to Hear Case Where a Racist Juror Sentenced Man to Death — Kreb Talk

In Georgia, jurors must unanimously decide on the death penalty for it to take effect, which happened after Tharpe’s 1991 murder conviction. Seven years after the conviction, attorneys trying to appeal Tharpe’s case interviewed Gattie and found him to be a racist whose virulent hate would go unmatched until a man with skin the color and consistency of Goldfish crackers took up residence in the White House.

When they interviewed Gattie, according to Time magazine, he proudly proclaimed, among other things:

  • There is a difference between “good black folks” like the victims Tharpe murdered and “niggers.”
  • He owned a store and routinely kicked “niggers” out of it.
  • He voted for the death penalty because he thinks Tharpe is a “nigger.”
  • If Nicole Brown Simpson hadn’t married a “nigger” (O.J. Simpson), she would still be alive.
  • He often “wondered if black people even have souls.”
  • Some of the jurors wanted Tharpe to serve as “an example for other blacks who kill blacks.”

Still, after this information was provided in Tharpe’s appeal, the 11th Circuit Court said that Gattie’s racial animus wasn’t enough to prove that he was biased in his vote to convict. But on the day of his scheduled execution, in a 5-4 decision, the Supreme Court sent the case back to the 11th Circuit.

Now looking at the above in-quote remarks, still, the 11th Circuit Court concluded that “racial animus wasn’t enough to prove that [Gattie] was biased in his vote to convict?” Seriously?!! That just goes to show that whatever shit slithered into a black robe and sits on the 11th Circuit Court is just as racist as Gattie, for how could IT not be. Those shits, as I have stated numerous times are NOT human! There is no way they could be. Only things that have no soul, no heart, no moral compass, no empathy and no compassion could sit somewhere and allow an execution to take place knowing that racism played THE deciding factor in the implementation of the death penalty.

Also, it should be known that the accused, Keith Tharpe has a reported IQ of 74, making him unable to understand the charges, according to many experts. But that does not matter, according to the Supreme Court. Tharpe waited too long.

I do know something. I know why I have never been called for jury duty. I am TOO Black for jury duty! They would never call me for jury duty and I’ve lived in multiple states, have never committed a crime, been a registered voter and held a valid driver’s license and yet, my Black ass has never been called for jury duty? What’s up with that shit??!!

Let a white motherfucker sit in the defendant’s chair. I know right out-of-the gate that that parasite is guilty as hell! In fact, they’d have to drag me out of the courtroom because I would stand up, point an accusatory finger at his ass and scream, “Lock his parasitic ass up for life, he’s guilty as hell!” And as far as I am concerned, he could be accused of only stealing a candy bar from the corner 7-Eleven store.

I cannot even hazard a guess as to how many innocent Black men and Black women have been put to death thanks to racism, but who were indeed, innocent. Even today, when one is supposed to face a jury of ones peers, there are still more whites on the juries where there are Black defendants than there are Black jurors when there are white defendants. Whites are not our peers. They are our mortal enemies; each and every single one of them. You will never see a mostly Black jury presiding over the court case of a white male parasite or even a white female parasite because whites know what they have done to us and are still doing to us and they know that if we ever get the chance to return the favor, we’d take it. I know I would! So yeah, call me for jury duty to preside over a parasite! I fucking wish they would! I’d seek fucking justice done, alright!

And don’t even think about posting a comment about how two wrongs don’t make a right. You are hundreds of years too goddamn late with THAT shit! And the same applies with murder for murder. The state can sanction murder without penalty and yet if I murder someone, I can pay the ultimate penalty; my life! The same also applies to the US military. Soldiers can kill with impunity while suited up, but go to prison if they come back to the states and cannot distinguish the ‘good’ guys from the ‘bad’ guys because they are fucked up in the head and cannot turn the ‘kill switch’ off. Who is that shit on? Those who turned him/her into a killing machine or the one who allowed himself/herself to be turned into a killing machine? Once again, whitey parasite ass gets to pick and choose, in the most fucked up manner possible, just what is legal and sanctioned by the state and what is not. No wonder this shithole is going to hell in a hand basket, not a bit of this shit makes any damn sense! Hell! By now, even my fucking head is spinning! No wonder everyone in this shithole is either mentally ill, a drunk a drug addict or ALL of the aforementioned! Oh, and the army wants them too; the mentally ill, the drunk and the drug addict. Now, go sign up!

…And The Proof Just Keeps On Coming That Mental Illness Is NOT Taken Seriously In America!

Here we go again!

Michigan authorities say a mom fatally shot her three children Monday before turning the gun on herself.

On Wednesday, Kent County officials identified Aubrianne Moore, 28, and her daughters Alaina Rau, 2, Cassidy Rodery, 6, and Kyrie Rodery, 8, as the four people found dead at a Grand Rapids home.

Aubrianne Moore used a bolt-action hunting-style rifle to fatally shoot her kids in a wooded area near their home. She then loaded their bodies into her car and returned home, where she killed herself outside the vehicle.

The sheriff’s spokesperson tells PEOPLE that authorities had been called to the home in the past. The calls were “mental health related issues.” Court documents reveal that Moore had a history of mental illness and suffered from hallucinations and schizophrenia. In September, Moore was declared a danger to herself and hospitalized for more than a week.

I just blogged about a young man in California who killed his mother, father and their housekeeper and now this. And now there is a message at the bottom of the article stating that if you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-TALK.

No one wanted to help me when I called the crisis line in an attempt to get help for my suicidal cousin. In fact, I was placed on hold while he was coming at me with knives and then I was told to call them back at 9:00a.m. Apparently, no one should attempt to commit suicide and call for crisis help at 4:00a.m. They must wait for the suicide/mental crisis regular office hours.

Three young children are dead, who had their whole lives ahead of them because, once again, mental illness is NOT taken seriously in America! I cannot stress this enough! How many innocent people must die before mental illness is taken seriously? Where was the follow-up care, otherwise known as ‘after care’ for this mother of three since only five months after having been sitting all up in the psych ward for being a danger to herself, this woman not only kills herself, but takes out her three small children? This is just unbelievably horrific! The children were aged 2, 6 and 8. And no one is going to be held accountable for their deaths because I am not blaming their mother because I know for a fact that she could have sought help until hell froze over and she still would have ended up doing what she did because there is no help. There is nowhere to turn because a short stint in the psych ward is not enough when a person has a lifelong mental illness. This woman was suffering from hallucinations and schizophrenia and that is nothing to play with. Whomever her doctor was, he/she has the blood of those innocent children on his/her hands because a mentally ill person is a vulnerable person and should be treated as such. A person who is a danger to themselves is also a danger to others. And I stated on another blog that the first people to get hurt and/or killed by a mentally ill person will be those who are family members or caregivers because they are in the danger zone and here we have three children, aged 2, 6 and 8….DEAD!

So now there is hand wringing and gnashing of teeth going on and pleas for suicidal people to call the Suicide Hotline. Aren’t they supposed to wait for Mental Health Awareness Month? Aren’t they supposed to wait for Suicide Prevention Week? Who is recognizing mental illness and suicide prevention on the off weeks and months? During the month or week set aside to address the issues of mental health and suicide, stories will abound, but afterwards, nothing is said until mentally ill people start going the fuck off and killing themselves and their children or killing their parents and the help. Now they want to throw in about calling the Suicide Hotline. Oh yes, now this is all “SO tragic” and “we need to do better, blah, blah, blah!” What the hell use are psychiatrists, psychologists and psych wards when it is quite apparent they they are doing fuck all about mental illness? What is their purpose? Why are they getting the big bucks? What the hell is their problem??!!! People are dying because those quacks sit back and utter gibberish at someone for 10 minutes and then it is on to the next ‘patient’. And if you don’t have insurance….well now…just cure yourself! This is just unbefuckingbelievable!

I just posted about my cousin’s suicide attempt on January 22nd and then I posted about a man who murdered his mother, father and their housekeeper earlier today and now this. This is just never going to stop! Look at those children in the above photo. They are dead. Their mother is dead; took a shotgun to them and to herself because in her mind of hallucinations and schizophrenia, she just could not make sense out of her life. There were those who were supposed to help her put it all back together and be there for her when it all unraveled because make no mistake, medications always need adjusting, medications stop working and some people stop taking them because of all the bad side effects and so mentally ill people need constant monitoring. That is obvious. Her children had quite obviously been in danger since the police stated that they had been to her house several times due to mental illness problems and for domestic civil disputes. And since she had been in the hospital a mere five months ago for being a danger to herself, then that automatically qualified her to be a danger to her children since they were to be in her immediate vicinity when she was let out of the psych ward. Believe you me, they don’t keep you very long in a psych ward. There are too many waiting on a slot and so there is no incentive to keep people in for as long as they need to be in. I know because my cousin should have been placed in a facility because if he had, he would not be in the condition he is in today; sitting somewhere with multiple scars from a fractured skull, broken neck, broken back, fractured right leg with chunks missing out of it, bullets poking out of his buttocks, bullet fragments in his bladder, scars from surgery all up and down his stomach, a head that is lopsided because his skull had to be taken off and put back on again minus some of it and I could go on and on. The man’s body looks like he has been in a hundred wars and all because mental illness is NOT taken seriously in America!

Because I have whooped and hollered and threw sixteen fits, my cousin is now receiving injections again, has a case manager that he is going to see tomorrow and another investigation is about to commence against his doctors and the medical board called me today to inform me that I would indeed, be receiving a copy of what the investigation uncovers and any disciplinary action taken against his doctors….AND I am going to address City Council on the 27th of this month and most likely get hauled off and arrested because I am going to go the fuck off! I finally received a call today that I am scheduled to address City Council and believe me, there will be many who will lose their hearing at that meeting; this I can promise you! I am not trying to become a statistic; murdered by my mentally ill loved one and if no one else will look out for me, then I will!

And so for those of you who are in a similar predicament, what you should know is that you must continue to try and have your voice heard. Call the medical board! Call City Council. Call the newspapers. Call everyone out! Just don’t sit and suffer in silence because you may very well end up silenced, permanently like those poor children were silenced. I know it is tough, but you have got to be your own advocate because no one else is going to do it. I am located in Virginia. If you think that there is anything that I can provide as to resources or how to get your city involved and the medical board involved where you live, please leave a comment in the comment section. Your information will not be posted since I monitor ALL comments. Reach out to other people who are going through this. This is why I told my story and why I am posting about how prevalent murder/suicide is where mental illness is concerned. Thoughts and prayers don’t get it done for if they did, I am quite sure the loved ones of this woman who just killed her children and herself would have moved heaven and earth with prayers for this not to have happened. Likewise, the loved ones of the man who just killed his mother, father and their housekeeper would have done the same. Don’t think that you can go it alone because you can’t. Reach out! There are people out there like me who care! And I intend to start a support group for people who care for their mentally ill loved ones. If you are in Central Virginia, leave a comment if you are interested in starting your own support group! Again, don’t be the next victim in a news article of this nature. There are more people in your neck of the woods who are in the same boat as you. We need to support each other!

Calif. Man Allegedly Killed Parents, Housekeeper in Upscale Home Before Going to E.R. – And I Bet Dollars To Donuts This Man Is Mentally Ill

As of yet, officials have not released what motivated this man to murder his mother and father and their housekeeper.

Calif. Man Allegedly Killed Parents, Housekeeper in Upscale Home Before Going to E.R.

“Something about the 27-year-old man who showed up Wednesday night in the emergency room at Irvine Medical Center in California led the staff to alert police.

Whether it was something they observed or overheard him say, police aren’t saying. But after Irvine officers spoke with the man, Camden Burton Nicholson, they called their peers in neighboring Newport Beach about 9 p.m. and sent them to a home in the gated Bonita Canyon community for a welfare check.

Inside the Newport Beach residence at 36 Palazzo, police found three bodies, they said in a news release.

Dead were Nicholson’s father, Richard, 64, and mother Kim, 61, and a woman later identified as the couple’s housekeeper, Maria Morse, 57, the Orange County Sheriff’s Office confirmed.”

Mrs. Morse’s husband also goes on to state that Kim Nicholson had given his wife a letter that was to be delivered to her attorney wherein she states that she is fearful of her son, whether that letter was ever delivered is anyone’s guess.

This is exactly why the title of my previous post is Mental Illness Is NOT Taken Seriously In America! Here is yet another testament as to the veracity of that statement. A mother was so terrified of her son that she tried to, surreptitiously, get a message out to her attorney in the hopes that he would take her fears seriously and act upon them. And yet, this is another case of “too little, too late.”

What must happen before mental illness receives the attention it deserves? How many loved ones or caregivers of the mentally ill must die before something is done about the fact that mentally ill people are left untreated and unsupervised by mental health care professionals while their care falls on their family members and others within their sphere who are ill-equipped to deal with these individuals? I have already stated this before and I shall do so again, so long as the mentally ill individual murders their immediate family or commits suicide, nothing will be done and quite frankly, nothing is done even when they make headlines for having murdered a bunch of strangers.

Those of us who take care of the mentally ill live in constant fear for our lives and mental health care professionals are completely aware of this and yet, nothing is done. There are so many horror stories that mimic what happened to Richard and Kim Nicholson and their housekeeper, Maria Morse while we sit back and read each story as they come down the pike and stories of the like will continue. Those people did not have to die. They did not have a terminal illness and so were given six months to live and yet in all actuality, they were consigned to their fate by a system that is set up to make sure that this particular outcome, continues. A mother, a father and their housekeeper are dead because no one in the mental health care field gave a damn about the fact that their son’s mental illness was spiraling out-of-control and his immediate caregivers couldn’t do a thing but wait for what they knew was inevitable; their ultimate demise at the hands of their mentally ill son, hence the reason for the letter that Kim Nicholson was trying to get her housekeeper to hand over to her attorney so that he/she would know she lived in fear of her mentally ill son.

People like Kim Nicholson and her husband and their housekeeper were not able to wait around for Mental Health Awareness Month in the hopes of being interviewed simply because May has been designated the month to recognize those who live with mental illness. What about those who die from mental illness because mental illness does indeed, kill? Doing nothing about mental illness kills. Ignoring mental illness kills.

The Nicholsons’ son took himself to the E.R. after having killed his mother, father and their housekeeper and upon seeing that something wasn’t right about him, hospital personnel alerted the police who then went to the Nicholsons’ home and found them along with their housekeeper, dead. They never made headline news in trying to obtain help to deal with their mentally ill son, but they sure as hell are headline news now.

I live in fear just as Kim Nicholson lived in fear and look what happened to her. I have begged and pleaded with my mentally ill cousin’s mental health care providers to do something about his condition and about the fact that I live in constant fear of his mental condition and yet, nothing is done. This is indeed, indicative of just how futile it is to look for help from his so-called mental health care providers. If you have not read the post preceding this one, my cousin just engaged in a 15-hour standoff with police/SWAT because he wanted to commit suicide by train…AGAIN and so took himself and multiple knives to some train tracks, placed himself on the tracks to await a train, whereas he was observed by a passerby and the police were alerted to a possible mentally ill individual attempting suicide. When the police/SWAT arrived at the scene, he threatened to stab himself if they did not allow the train to run over him. Unbeknownst to me, he had taken several knives and left our home earlier that morning with every intention of never returning to it. He had seen his psychiatrist a mere twelve days prior to this suicide attempt. The 15-hour standoff came to a conclusion only because my cousin was shot with bean bags and pellets that hurt so bad, he had no choice but to surrender his knives. After a five day stint in the psych ward, he was sent right back home for me to deal with. He had previously attempted suicide multiple times. He had already drank bleach twice, drank furniture polish remover, drank Borax, slit his wrist, jumped in front of a train, taken knives and walked around Baltimore and was promptly shot by the cops and now this latest suicide attempt on January 22nd.

By now, I don’t know why I have not attempted suicide because I have no support. I have no group to go to and air my grievances over the fact that there is no support and I have tried to get my story told before it is a part of my obituary resulting from my death at the hands of my mentally ill cousin. And I am sure that what will not be included is the extent to which I have gone to get my story told and to get some help not only for my mentally ill cousin, but for myself as well.

As I type this, my cousin is on his way to attend an appointment with a new psychiatrist, or so I hope, since I could not drive him because the roads are bad thanks to this latest winter storm. Each day, I live with a sword hanging over my head. Is he going to take his meds? Are they going to continue to be effective? Is he going to change personalities again? Will he give up hope and try and end it? Will his psychosis return and make him forget who I am? All of that has happened. He has been in the throes of psychosis and come at me with knives and I now know how I would react in a horrifying situation, I’d freeze because that is what I did. When he came at me with knives, I merely said, “So, are you going to stab me now?” He looked at me for a moment and then backed away and, coincidentally, I was on the phone, on hold waiting for help from ‘The Crisis Line’ who eventually told me to call back at 9:00a.m. I was on the phone with them at 4:00a.m. Even our emergencies must occur between the hours of 9:00a.m. to 5:00p.m. despite the fact that “The Crisis Line” is open 24/7. That, apparently, is a lie.

And so for those of you who are going through what I am going through, I wish that I could offer you hope, but I don’t have any. Kim Nicholson, her husband and their housekeeper had no hope. But maybe if we are still around in May, someone will tell our story. Someone will write about our pain and anguish over trying to navigate through a mental health care system that is so broken, it is useless. Maybe we just need to make it to May and then we’ll be taken seriously. And yeah, maybe there will be world peace by then as well, I’m that delusional.

Mental Illness Is NOT Taken Seriously In America!

Despite the rhetoric thrown about by the president and members of congress and communities-at-large after supposedly ‘mentally ill’ white males go on shooting sprees and murder people in schools, churches, concert venues, grocery stores, theaters and on-the-job, mental illness is not taken seriously in America. It is only given lip service when individuals have committed acts that garner international attention.

My cousin is a mentally ill adult who has been on every psychiatric drug you could name and his condition only worsens. When we lived in Minnesota, the psych meds he was on started causing him physical problems. He became diabetic, obese, his triglycerides increased as did his bad cholesterol levels. His kidneys were also affected. Of course, his primary care doctor then placed him on cholesterol medications, diabetes medications, high blood pressure medications and that list was endless. Suffice it to say, the man had had enough and discontinued all psychiatric medications. As his body lost the weight, his brain crashed as well. He started doing things that he ordinarily would not have done such as going into the woods and trying to live with the animals, staying out all night long, getting little sleep. His eating habits changed. He started becoming extremely paranoid but also highly open to suggestion. He had won a lawsuit and started going to mosques. The Somalis in Minnesota had my cousin hand over his settlement money and all the things he had purchased with said money. They told him that he had to walk, ‘the walk of shame'(which is non-existent) and the man walked all over Minnesota in the winter, after having given the Somalis his boots first where then he was struck by a car and hospitalized for a few days. Upon his release, he was sent home, loony as a tune and with no psychiatric follow-up care in place.

A few days later, he was picked up by the police because someone had called 911 and reported that a man was talking to birds and was clearly out-of-his mind. They took him to a hospital where he was placed in the psych ward, loaded down with psych meds and when someone finally notified me that he was there, I promptly rushed on over and the man was a zombie. He could not even lift his head up. His arm where his veins were were full of puncture marks from the needles they had shot him up with. I almost landed a spot in the psych ward myself because I immediately threw sixteen fits about his condition. The man’s arm looked like a pincushion. They released him from the hospital after three weeks back to his home. I begged them to find a suitable group home or facility for him because he was just too far gone. His brain was basically, soup. They did not listen and so he continued to get into trouble and finally, a civil commitment commenced. He was still allowed to live in his own apartment and the court appointed mental health case manager and crisis teams were supposed to do home visits. They asked me to attend the first home visit. I had to reschedule an appointment that I had already made just to attend the home visit. The day of the home visit, I was standing at my cousin’s apartment door at the appropriate time, knocked on the door only to hear my cousin say, “Come back later, or don’t come back at all.” I knocked on the door again, and heard the same message even though I could hear female voices coming from the apartment.

The next day I called his case workers and demanded an explanation and was told that if my cousin did not want me there, that was his right. HUH??? They were there by court order and so his word should have carried no weight. It was their call. The next thing I know, I get a call from my cousin’s doctor asking me to find out why my cousin was not taking his medications since she had seen him and he was not doing good. I contacted my cousin’s case workers and that is when they decided to go in with the police and have him committed to the hospital. When the police entered my cousin’s apartment, he was in the act of attempting suicide by cutting his wrist with a knife. He was taken to the hospital and kept for another three weeks and was so hostile, I was called and the case workers begged me to see what I could do with him. Yeah! Karma is a bitch! This time they needed my assistance and yet when I arrived, I was cussed out and sent home with my feelings hurt. He was then released to his apartment. A few days after his release from the psych ward, he was put out of the airport because he had gone there requesting to get on a flight to Saudi Arabia in order to “fight the anti-Christ.” A few days after that incident, he was arrested for biting two security guards in the Somali mall after he had stripped naked and brandished a sword screaming out of his mind about how no one in the mosque “was praying right.” He was taken to jail, tazed and placed in a cell. He was then taken to the hospital and placed in the psych ward. He was released pending a court date for a civil commitment hearing. Before the hearing, he boarded a Greyhound bus and went to Washington, DC where he promptly jumped in front of a train. As a result, he suffered a fractured skull, broken neck, broken back and broken right leg. He was released from the hospital with an aluminum walker into homelessness a little over a week later. He called me and said that he was seeing “flying saucers” and that “people were after him.” The next time I heard from him, he was calling me from a psych ward. He had thought about jumping in front of a truck, but called the police instead and they took him to the psych ward. He was then placed in some sort of home for people who have nowhere else to go and the person operating the home was not feeding him. He called me and informed me of his living conditions. I left Minnesota and found him a place to live in Maryland. He was gaunt and still walking with the use of a walker.

When he was hit by the train, it was August, 7, 2016. By the time November 2016 arrived, my cousin’s mental state was rapidly deteriorating again. I contacted the crisis line, hospitals, psychiatrists; the whole nine yards. I was told to call the police to which I stated that seeing as how we were in Baltimore, the police would shoot me as well as shoot him. I left to go seek help and that is when my cousin, while in the midst of a a mental breakdown, walked into a store, purchased some knives, sat down on the curb of a sidewalk by himself, saw some birds and produced the knives and began, in his words to, “direct the birds.” The police rolled up on him even though he was just sitting and had laid down the knives and the police proceeded to bark orders at him. My cousin did not understand what was going on and the police shot him 6 times. He bled out at the scene, but somehow survived. Witnesses stated that he looked like he was mentally ill and that he did not bother anyone and that the police had no reason to shoot him. I was not there. I can only go by the news accounts I read. He spent a month recuperating from multiple surgeries to repair the damage done by the bullets and of course, he was still recuperating from having jumped in front of a train. He was also transferred to the psych ward at Johns Hopkins Hospital whereupon he was released about a week and a half later. He received injections every week at Johns Hopkins.

My cousin then became fearful of living in Baltimore as was I and we moved. He started experiencing sleep deprivation and after begging his psychiatrist for help and receiving none as months and months of sleepless nights came and went, on January 22 of this year, he took some knives and went to the railroad tracks, placed his head on the tracks in hopes that a train would come through and crush his skull. A passerby saw him and called 911 to report a possible mentally disturbed man on the railroad tracks. The police/SWAT arrived and a 15-hour standoff commenced. I know my cousin and when he did not come home when he usually does, I immediately checked the local news and of course, saw where there was a standoff with a mentally ill man. I called 911 and told them that it was my cousin involved in the standoff. They sent me a picture of him and of course, that was him. Later that night, in an attempt to get him to drop the knives and surrender, the police showed up at our door and had me on the phone while they produced a bullhorn of some sort to try and get through to him. It was to no avail. The standoff continued and only ceased after my cousin had been shot with bean bags and pellets that hurt so bad, he had no choice but to give up. His body is still covered in bruises, but at least he is still alive. He was transported to a local hospital for evaluation and then transferred to another hospital where he was placed on the psych ward for 5 days. He was given an injection, trazodone and gabapentin and then a taxi was called. He took the taxi to the police station whereupon they gave him his knives back(knives that they had taken from him after the 15-hour standoff). He came home with a bowie knife and a machete and several pocketknives. How that is even possible is still a mystery to me, hence the title of this blog post.

As a caregiver for the mentally ill, I can honestly say that it takes a toll on ones mental and physical health. I am not the person I used to be and I blame the mental health care system that is failing mentally ill people, those who care for them because no one else will, and society as a whole. I have tried to bring attention to the seriousness of the problem by writing letters to my local newspaper, to the Washington Post, the New York Times, The Guardian, The BBC, USAToday and yet not one of those entities is interested. Shows you just how much concern they have over the headlines that make the news regarding mentally ill people when they have killed 9 or 20 or 50 people. So long as they are basically perceived as a threat to themselves and to those who must care for them, who cares? The fact of the matter is that mental illness that is neglected or mistreated is more likely to result in a catastrophic situation. And those in the mental health care field are not doing their job. I can attest to that. Even those who are involved in the civil commitment process are not doing their job for if they had, my cousin would never have made it onto a Greyhound bus, but because his mental state was never taken seriously, this led to a horrifying chain of events.

No one is being held accountable for any of this, not the courts in Minnesota, nor the mental health care professionals who were responsible for the mistreatment of my cousin’s mental disorders. Those in Baltimore, MD were never held accountable for the fact that his mental illness was not taken seriously even though by then, he had a long history of attempted suicides. And where we are now, even though I have filed two complaints against his doctors and two investigations have commenced, I cannot get the results of the investigations and no lawyer will help me. AGAIN, this is why I say, “Mental Illness Is NOT Taken Seriously In America! None of you can ever know the extent to which this man has suffered and I as well. Be thankful every single day that you are not going through this because I would not wish this on my worst enemy and though you may think that there are resources out there, can you honestly believe that I have not tried every avenue? I am not one for simply whining. I have exhausted myself to no end in trying to come up with solutions and where to find help. There is none. I am left to care for someone who scares me since he has come at me with knives before. I sleep with my door bolted and with a chair up against it. My health has deteriorated to the point where I am always sick. Even as I type this, I am on an antibiotic because I cannot shake an attack of sinusitis. If a person can sue over hot coffee at McDonald’s, think of the irony of the fact that I cannot sue to obtain the results of investigations that were initiated because of complaints that I filed with the medical board that saw just cause to initiate said investigations. How much sense does that make when a person can sue because coffee is hot, but no lawyer will help me gain access to information that should not be shielded from the public over doctors who can witness their patient’s mental decline and sit somewhere and do nothing about what they are observing? Our cries for help went unanswered. A mere twelve days after we both begged and pleaded with his psychiatrist for help with his sleep deprivation, my cousin was involved in a 15-hour standoff with police/SWAT. How is that even possible when the signs were everywhere? And yet, were deliberately ignored.

So the next time a person is in the news for going off and shooting up 25 people, don’t expect anything to be done beyond what is being done, lip service about thoughts and prayers. They’ve certainly not helped my cousin or me.