I Am Not A Shell Of A Human Lacking Humanity!

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Strong hands rest on gently rounded hips,
smooth dark skin and thick, full lips.
Tightly curled hair, my crowning glory;
a picture perfect, wordless story.

Sculpted features, carved by time,
upon my face, not one wrinkle or line.
Legs that stand firm to bear my weight,
and a Teflon coating that repels all hate.

Torn from Africa and brought to these shores,
compared and found lacking to pale-skinned whores.
Desire in the eyes of sickly white men,
with fetid breath and reeking of gin.

Sent to the fields and whipped every day,
trying to understand why I’m treated this way.
No hope of returning to the home that I loved.
I’m poked and prodded, pushed and shoved.

Stripped and sold and draped in chains,
told that I’m an animal and that I have no brains.
Am I a beast of burden or the white man’s slave?
To him, I am both until I’m lowered in my grave.

He will have to whip me, both day and night.
And still he’ll not crush me nor dim my light.
It glows from within and it will not die.
My bloodline will continue to multiply.

I will not worship his god; a deity of hate,
nor confine my soul to the white man’s fate.
That is not who I am and never will be,
I am not a shell of a human lacking humanity.

Written by,
Shelby I. Courtland
©2016 Shelby I. Courtland

I absolutely refuse to bow down and worship the white man’s god! How can I worship that which produced filth that would enslave my ancestors and me, commit unspeakable atrocities against us and then have the unmitigated gall to then turn around and head inside a church to bow down and worship a so-called, god ‘of love’?You cannot have it both ways. Love cannot come from hate and whatever hatred is praying to, it is not a ‘god’ of love! You are being played! Stop playing the fool!

The ‘white’ man’s god is not a god of ‘love’ if it produced him, he who is filled with nothing but hate! Negro people, where is your capacity for critical thinking? How can you emulate the ‘white’ man’s ways when you know it doesn’t make any sense to follow him over the cliff? How can you know what he has done to your ancestors and is also doing to you and yet, you take up his habits, his beliefs, his justifications for why he does what he does and worship the same false idols? Are you insane? Because that would seem to be the case from where I sit. You dutifully bow your heads at the table and pray to a ‘god’ that produced hate, bigotry, racism, prejudice and a false sense of fake assed superiority designed to keep you in your place when that filth that has you believing that you are inferior is rotten to the core?

And yet, you still believe that evil personified is going to save you if only you will stand in line and vote for that which has been trying Its damned best to wipe you out of existence? Go ahead and continue playing the stooge for something that is less than an animal and is planning your genocide at all times!

Because Your Ass Is White!

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Standing on the corner,
I’ve got these drugs for sale.
I turn a teacher into a ho
and I send her straight to hell.

Don’t put the blame on me.
I’m just a businessman.
I’m trying to make a living
the only way I can.

You don’t hate the motherfuckers
that sell you alcohol.
It’s all the same thing
but I’m the one who takes the fall.

My time on this here corner
maybe short, but it ain’t sweet.
I got the cops all on my ass
 until I’m just a piece of meat.

I must represent my gang
so don’t cross onto my turf.
Respect the line that’s drawn.
I’m just another serf.

The white man says to me,
“nigga, keep your nose clean!”
as he steals my crack and money
and kicks me in my spleen.

I ain’t got a fancy office
like the thugs on Wall Street.
But I got to live somehow.
Everybody needs to eat.

So, I shot a motherfucker.
And a child got in the way.
I didn’t set this shit in motion.
You know who called the play.

I’m on the evening news
I took a bullet to the head.
I’m just a motherfucker
lying in the morgue, dead.

The shit won’t stop with me.
That just ain’t how it works.
They gone keep those drugs coming
because of all the perks.

How you think I got the drugs?
Did you ever wonder why
I can get a gun and drugs
and make your ass so high?

I was low on the totem pole
and I always knew the score.
Get your head from out your ass.
You know why I was poor!

I was born to be a loser;
to end up dead or in the pen.
You know the goddamn truth.
I was never meant to win.

Blame me for the corruption
that comes down from the top.
You know who calls the shots
and who protects a dirty cop.

But it’s convenient to blame me
for the violence in the hood.
And ignore the burning cross
or the Aryan Brotherhood.

You can turn and look away
from what it’s all about
because in your little white bread world,
you’ll get yours without a doubt.

There ain’t no hungry bellies,
nor are there crack hos on the prowl.
You’ve got the sweetest little setup
while the rest of us live foul.

You sit nicely in the pew
on a fine Sunday morning.
You smile and pay your tithes.
You’ve got no reason to be mourning.

Your brother, he ain’t dead
from a drive by in the night.
You don’t live that kind of life
because your ass is white!

Written by,
Shelby I. Courtland
©2015 Shelby I. Courtland

And don’t even bother pardoning my language or my grammatical errors. I keep it real! Deal with it! We have to!

It Is Not Amazing, It Is Absurd!

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It is amazingly absurd
 that a slaver wrote a song
 and it was sung for a Black man.
How could this be more wrong?

Just how wrong could it be?
It was sung by one who is Black,
 and cheered on by ignorance.
They must have been on crack!

The lives of nine were so disgraced
 by an ignorant son-of-a-bitch.
He howled the words of a slaver;
 this puppet of the rich.

The nine who died while praying
 had hopes, but they were dashed.
No shield was there to save them
 when hate and Black skin clashed.

The hatred Blacks encounter
 is never far away.
It slithers through the doors of church
 even as they pray.

For all these hundreds of years,
Africa’s people suffered much.
And each new year will yield
 another death from hate’s cold touch!

Written by,

Shelby I. Courtland

©2015 Shelby I. Courtland

The song, ‘Amazing Grace’ was written by a white slave trader; a man that made his living off selling Black men, women and children into slavery, torture, rape, beatings, whippings and death. This slave trader turned to ‘god’ after riding out a horrific storm that caused him to become an Anglican priest, but nevertheless, he was a slave trader and for Black people to not even know the history of what they take up and run with, is beyond insanity.

Barack Obama is a Harvard graduate and therefore, should know better and yet, in the picture, those gathered around him, are supposedly, well-read and so they too, should have known better. But what we see is some Black people that either pretend ignorance or have dedicated themselves to remaining underneath Massa’s boot. As long as Massa is paying them, then they would sell their own grandma for the white man’s table scraps. Am I shocked at Obama’s filthy ass singing ‘Amazing Grace’ over Reverend Pinkney’s dead body? Hell no! His sell-out, bootlicking, Uncle Tom ass is a given, but every Black person should not just get down on their knees and continue to bow to Massa and go with the fucking flow! It is a damn shame when Black men cease to be men and will instead, shuffle and jive to the white man’s tune.

Amazing Grace was written by an Englishman who in the early part of his life was an outspoken atheist, libertine, and slave trader. John Newton was born in London in 1725, the son of a Puritan mother and a stern ship commander father who took him to sea when he was 11.

By 1745, Newton was enlisted in the slave trade, running captured slaves from Africa to, ironically, Charleston, S.C. After he rode out a storm at sea in 1748, he found his faith. He was ordained an Anglican priest in 1764 and became an important voice in the English abolitionist movement. At that time he wrote the autobiographical Amazing Grace, along with 280 other hymns.

 Oh the absurdity of ‘Amazing Grace’, written by your friendly neighborhood slave trader and sung at funerals for Black people shot up by white supremacists, everywhere. Soon to be sung at a church near you!

History Has Taught You Nothing!

history book

I refuse to shed another tear.
Not one more tear will come
though I try to feel the pain
I am completely numb.

The ties that used to bind me
are no longer strong and true.
I have cried too many times
and I am tired, I’m done, I’m through.

How many times I’ve poured my heart
into writing about our plight
while we lie down and crawl
and never put up a fight.

We are gunned down and choked to death
and we just march and sigh.
But what we fail to realize
is that they want us all to die.

You cannot grasp or understand
that your life will never matter.
And regardless of what you do
like a mirror, your dreams, they’ll shatter.

You tell yourself that if you play
by the rules of those that hate,
somehow, someway, you’ll get by
if only you’ll assimilate.

Adopt their customs, accept their god
and believe the lies they tell.
History has taught you nothing
for they have deceived you well.

Written by,
Shelby I. Courtland
©2015 Shelby I. Courtland

You Blacks Just Make Me Sick!!!!

Not ONE knew NOT to turn their back on THAT white shit???!!! Seriously???!!! For the love of ......!!!!!
Not ONE knew NOT to turn their back on THAT white shit???!!! Seriously???!!! For the love of ……!!!!!

You are punks and snot-nosed kids
since you lie down and take their shit.
You’re not worthy of Father’s Day.
Black boys, you’re too unfit.

You say that you’re a man?
Prove it and I’ll believe.
A man would fight, not run.
He wouldn’t cry on his mama’s sleeve.

Three punks got shot in church
by a boy with shit for brains.
Did they sit and sing a hymn
as the fear ran through their veins?

They never did a thing
to protect their queens that died.
But they welcomed in the fold
one they know has always lied.

Why would you turn your back
on an enemy that you know?
What the hell is wrong with you
when you will pray with your mortal foe?

You Blacks just make me sick
with your stupid, foolish ways.
You allow the enemy in
and wonder why you dig more graves.

You live in a state of hate
and the street names say it all.
They raped and lynched our ass
and for their bullshit, you still fall.

But you say that you’re a man
born of kings from the Ivory Coast.
And yet, it takes just one white shit
to make every Black ass, toast!

Written by,
Shelby I. Courtland
©2015 Shelby I. Courtland

I sincerely hope that you stupid Black motherfuckers are enjoying Father’s Day even though it does not pertain to you. How in the hell did three so-called Black men, do not a goddamn thing but sit in a prayer circle and not only let six women get shot, but allow themselves to get shot dead? Were they just sitting there waiting on an epiphany from god or were they waiting on god to intervene and knock the goddamn gun out of this little white shit’s hand? Black motherfuckers make me want to puke when all they ever talk about is how they ain’t going out like some punk ass bitch and that is exactly how they go out! You motherfuckers don’t look at the goddamn news? You don’t know that your ass is on every fucking body’s hit list from skinhead cops to your average garden variety bigot? When are you going to figure out that it has been open season on our ass since the first white foot stepped said foot in Africa and was ALLOWED to drag us the fuck over here? And why would that be? Because Blacks are such MANLY MEN? Hell if that’s so! I don’t give a goddamn if the enemy has to fuck up several million of us with their goddamn guns, if the enemy is in my country of birth, damn it if he is going to take it the fuck over AND steal my motherfucking people and enslave them!

And yet Black people are always somewhere attempting to point to how smart the people of Africa are. I fucking can’t see it! If the Africans were so goddamn smart, would the whites be over there owning every goddamn thing and would they have had the ability to distribute AIDS and every goddamn thing else over there? The white bastards have not taken over China. Russia told the Nazis to fuck off! But Africa and Australia have been taken over by the whites when there was a majority Black population in both and we like to think that we are SO goddamn smart? Yeah! Put that stupid shit to rest ’cause it so ain’t true! That much should be obvious even to a blind man that’s been planted! And you stupid motherfuckers are still walking around saying, “We still believe that prayer changes things!” For real? So, will prayer take us back to BEFORE those nine people got whacked by a ‘son of the confederacy’? I didn’t fucking think so!

“It has been tough, it’s been rough, some of us have been downright angry, but through it all God has sustained us and has encouraged us. Let us not grow weary in well-doing,” said the Rev. Norvel Goff, a presiding elder of the 7th District AME Church in South Carolina.

Yep! Spoken like a REAL man! “God is gonna sustain and encourage us to keep getting our ass kicked,” so says the presiding elder. “Sweet GEEZUS! I believe! Oh what faith, I have!”

Gag me with a goddamn spoon!

Happy Father’s Day Malcolm X, to you and ONLY you! To hell with you Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., and all the rest of you pansy-pants snot-nosed crybabies because you never could get your act together. Thanks to you, we got so many Black MEN now, it is ‘unreal’ and that is a fact because it is just NOT reality! Now you stupid lily-livered Black motherfuckers, suck on that! You’re NOT men, you’re fucking crybabies! So cry into those goddamn buckets that I have placed in front of you for your sad ass tears!

https://shelbycourtland.wordpress.com/2015/06/20/and-here-are-the-buckets/

“You Rape Our Women And Are Taking Over Our Country!”

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“You rape our women and are taking over our country,” so said Dylann Storm Roof, the white supremacy filled TERRORIST that murdered nine innocent people who were hell bent on worshipping the ‘god’ of the white man in the Emanuel African Methodist Episcopal Church at around 8pm on Wednesday night and sat in a Bible study group with his victims for more than an hour before opening fire. Dylann Storm Roof has just got to be in Africa. He’s got to be because that is exactly what happened in Africa and is also what happened as Africans were shipped to different countries to become slaves.

Those of us who are descendants of slaves here in America are every shade from palest pale to darkest Black and why would that be? It be from rape! The rape of our ancestors took place in this hell that has been nothing but pure hell for every Black person in AmeriKKKa. And who the fuck was raping whom? The goddamn lily white asses was raping the Black slaves from presidents on down. Goddamn Thomas Jefferson, a stomp down flaming racist, hypocritical slave owning bastard, raped his own wife’s slave sister and begat child after child on her and never did ‘free’ them even though he spoke of “being with one mind resolved to die freemen rather than to live slaves” and “We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness” all while brandishing a whip over his affrighted slaves.

But along comes a white supremacy filled terrorist talking about who is raping and taking over his country when….let me just take a minute here………………….when not one Black person that is a descendant of slaves is here because we rowed over to AmeriKKKa, got off at Ellis Island, looked up at the Statue of Liberty, read the poem at its base and said, “Yep! This here is the place to be!”

I just cannot wrap my head around this shit! I fucking can’t! And as if what was done isn’t bad enough, Black folks are already speaking of ‘forgiving this piece of shitty filth’. Are you fucking for real??!!!! We never ever fucking learn! We just continue to bend over and take it up the ass! We continue to ‘forgive’ the motherfuckers that are hell bent on exterminating us just as they did to the Indians! We must forgive and we must forget all the senseless murders of Black people thanks to the goddamn white supremacy that IS this hellhole!

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And of course, it has been stated that those nine people are with the white man’s ‘god’ now. That is just SO pathetic and just unbelievable! Black people still don’t get it. You never will. This shit is your mortal enemy and has been from day one. The goddamn governor of South Carolina never said a word as she commenced to hypocritically get choked up, about the confederate flag flying atop the state capitol, the very same flag that is depicted on Roof’s license plate. But she is just so overcome with righteous indignation over the brutal murders of nine of her constituents. My bad, of nine of her ‘niggers’ that got themselves offed by a white supremacy filled terrorist for “raping our women and taking over our country”. So, six Black women and three Black men are raping women and taking over the country? Well not any more! Cynthia Hurd, 54; Tywanza Sanders, 26; Sharonda Singleton; Myra Thompson, 59; Ethel Lance, 70; Susie Jackson, 87; the Rev. Daniel Simmons Sr.; DePayne Doctor and of course, Reverend Clementa Pinckney are all dead for ‘raping women and taking over a country’ as they worshipped in the house of the Lawd in Charleston, South Carolina. They worshipped the same Lawd that has now welcomed them into the bosom of his ever loving white family beyond the stars, somewhere high in an unseen paradise that awaits us all. They are there now with their 72 wives. Oh my bad! Wrong religious credentials. They are there living in one of the Lawd’s many mansions and dining at the table of good and plenty, replete from consuming fishes and loaves and sipping the nectar of the ‘gods’! My bad, of ‘god’. Praise be sweet GEEZUS and Lawd, we bow before your heavenly presence in humble submission as our faith has truly been tested beyond the bounds of anything imaginable and at last, we are here! Oh rejoice! Rejoice! And if only the Black people that we left behind could understand that it is all worth it; every single bullet that has entered their bodies, fired from a racist’s gun, every job they’ve been denied based on their skin color, every Black man that was lynched, every Black man that was electrocuted and was innocent, every Black child, woman and man that has been discriminated against, jailed, hosed, bitten by dogs, marched on tired feet, dragged behind pickup trucks, considered three-fifths of a person; it will all become clear why you had to go through this once you enter the pearly gates and St. Peter welcomes you in to god’s loving white embrace. “Oh damn! A white man just came up to me in heaven and told me to clean his shoes. Goddamn! Black folks, never mind, it’s all bullshit! So do as Thomas Jefferson suggested, “live as free men or die slaves!”

My sure ass bet is that we will die as slaves!

And Obama said, “let’s grab a beer!”
We captured him, so let’s all cheer!
The Blacks forgave and that’s just right.
So let’s join hands and we’ll all unite!
Singing, born in the USA, born in the USA!
Altogether now, born in the USA!
Although, if truth beknown, I ain’t from here.
I be’ze from Kenya or Hawaii, it ain’t real clear!”

Forgive my lack of grammatical skills and all. Us slaves bain’t tawt tuh reed n rite reul gude!

Oh and one more thing, I just ‘love’ how MSM keeps saying, “HE ALMOST DIDN’T DO IT!” That should make those nine dead people feel really good about that. Yep! Let’s focus on “HE ALMOST DIDN’T DO IT!”!

Don’t Even Act Like You Don’t Know!

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It has come to my attention that some white folks are wondering why all of a sudden, they are seeing some shit that they have never seen before. Oh, really! I wonder why is that! Like fucking hell I do! You see, for hundreds of years, whites have been hell bent on making life as unpleasant and downright miserable and ugly for any and everybody that had a permanent tan of some sort. The whites have reduced the Indians, indigenous to America to less than a third of their initial population count that was up in the millions upon millions before the whites landed here and murdered the innocent Indians, confiscated their land and indoctrinated their children into the white’s culture AND then proceeded to inform anybody else that wanted to come here that they must first apply for citizenship when the whites NEVER applied to the Indians for citizenship, they just killed them. Shot them dead and then glorified the killing of these people with the likes of John Wayne and Glen Ford and Gregory Peck riding shotgun with a wagon train attempting to get those innocent ‘settlers’ into hostile Indian territory and oh how disturbing it was to view the wagon trains that were wiped out and see the pale ass scalps of the pale skins lying all about the goddamn ground. Oh, those horrid Indian savages! How could they? Yep! That’s whitey whites take on the history of this here shithole! Just ask fucking sick and twisted ass Hollywood!

Those savage Indians just could not be got along with and so the ‘christian’ whitey whites just had to do what was necessary to tame and subdue the original inhabitants of this land; subject them to torture, maim and kill them. Round the remaining Indians up and put them on reservations where the whites could keep an eye out for any Indians that may look cross-eyed due to their situation being what it was. Never mind, the savageness of the ‘christians’ who just wanted to live in peaceful bliss with those savage ass Indians who refused to share this land with the white peacekeepers. Every fucking body knows that whites have ALWAYS been ALL about the business of PEACE! Just ask those pesky savage Indians! Ask the poor Black slaves that got dragged over to this shithole once the whites figured out that the Indians were not going to build this shithole up for them! Ask the Black people over in Africa and the other Brown people over in other Middle Eastern countries that have had the whites on their asses since day fucking one! Ask them if they’ve ever known the whites to get their big ass boot up off their goddamn necks! Ask ’em how wonderful, benevolent and kind the white ‘christians’ have always been towards them.

And now, some white folks are wondering why they are just now seeing what the Black and Brown population of this here planet has known ever since they saw the first white foot set said foot on their motherfucking land. Some white folks are just SO fucking bewildered now that there are Youtube videos of eyewitness accounts of white motherfuckers fucking up the goddamn day of said Black and Brown bodies all across this godforsaken planet! Ain’t that just a bitch? They are fucking wondering what’s about to happen to their ass! What’s about to happen to your goddamn ignorant, clueless ass is what has been happening to every Black and Brown body that the whites have been fucking up for hundreds of goddamn years! That is what is fucking happening! And about goddamn time, I say! So read the damn writing on the wall and don’t even bother to prep for that shit ’cause you ain’t gonna have time for that shit! No indeed, you are not! Your turn has come! We’ve been dealing with this shit for, AGAIN, hundreds of goddamn years and you white motherfuckers that’s just waking up are all a’gog over what you are just now privileged to witness! How lucky you goddamn Rip Van Wrinkles have been!

Sit up and recognize that your nap is being disturbed and how! Now fucking suck on that because you don’t like having your bullshit nap disturbed over some Black bodies that’s getting torn to bits every goddamn day but if you continue to see military vehicles arrive in a suburb near you, why “what’s the goddamn problem, officer?! This here ain’t the fucking hood! We is white bread christian America, doncha know!!!” I hope their fucking boot that’s been planted squarely on our necks for centuries gets shoved up your white asses so goddamn far that the toe comes outta your fucking mouth! Now, how’s that for a fucking ‘christian’ attitude! Yeah! I know! I ain’t even close to being as rotten, vile, nasty, barbaric and shitty as the peace loving ‘christians’ are but I promise to continue to work on it and that’s for goddamn certain! And AGAIN! Suck on that!

On The Wicked Ways Of Man

Jesus

I came back as a homeless man

And you locked me in a cage

The guards beat me ferociously

My Father was consumed with rage.

 

When next He sent me back to you

I walked across desert sand

A drone was sent to kill me

And I was back in my Father’s hand.

 

I was sent once more to shed some light

On the wicked ways of man

You once again, paid me no heed

since I had the deepest tan.

 

No more will I come for you

Your sins have damned you all

And when you die, you’ll not come here

In hell on your knees, you’ll crawl.

Written by,

Shelby I. Courtland

©2015 Shelby I. Courtland

 This one is for the Christians because you guys have just finished patting yourselves on your goddamn back  and screaming and yelling about how “He is risen!” etc., etc., and then got on with the business of hating on your foreign neighbors, got on with the business of playing fake ass do-gooders when you’re really taking all of the tithes that you bilk from the blind sheep and using it to purchase your fancy vehicles and take your grand vacations. I’ve watched as you beseeched the public for funds to feed the homeless, only to turn around and fill your pantries and freezers with the choicest meats and delicacies and gave to the poor and hungry, outdated shit and you smiled all day long over what your hypocritical ass was doing. Oh, you’ll get yours, indeed you will.

And if you are sitting somewhere expecting an announcement that Jesus has come back, are you serious? There will be no trumpet announcements and “Gather ye!” messages. Your biblical Jesus was poor and humble and walked the earth in a robe and if you truly believe that He will arrive driving a Cadillac Escalade with an Armani suit on, are you for real? You faithless shits wouldn’t know Jesus if he walked right through you. You wouldn’t even feel Him because you are dead inside. The only thing you care for is material shit and to see people who you think are your enemies, dead. You chase after ever more elusive highs because your sad and pathetic little world is really not doing it for you, is it? No, it’s not and that is why you have to deaden the awareness because you are not really living, you are just pretending because that is expected of you and you need stronger drugs and more alcohol to get you through the day because no one can know that you are not really as happy as you claim to be. But you won’t do what you need to do. You refuse to stop worshipping money and you just can’t stop being greedy, cold, callous, thoughtless and selfish. You pretend that you are not any of those things when in fact, you are all of them and so much more of the like.

If your Jesus did come back, what would He think of you? Yeah, I know and what’s more, so do you!

 

No One Dare Accost The Righteous!

religious drones

The pastor is at the pulpit
spouting out his lies,
while another child in Iraq,
from a drone strike, dies.

The priest blessed the altar,
while we dutifully bowed our heads.
And the drones rained down,
as American barbarity spreads.

The Reverend held the bible,
and he said, “Thou shall not kill!”
But the drone operator,
paid no heed to God’s own will.

A Rabbi reads the Torah,
but he never mentions drones.
He speaks about old Moses,
but not about what God condones.

Our Bishop looks so fine,
decked out in full regalia.
His lips don’t move at all,
about the drones that struck Algeria.

The Pope had much to say,
on how we should help the poor.
But never did he mention,
America’s thirst for war.

We pretend that we are good,
compassionate, loving and kind.
And our pious souls are pure,
but to the drone struck, we are blind.

The hypocrites gather faithfully,
and they pledge to love all men.
What you fail to understand,
is that ‘all men’ just means their kin.

No one dare accost the righteous.
There are no ghosts to haunt our nights.
Our days are spent in oblivion.
To the world, we are its knights.

Do you hear the keening wails
from those who mourn their dead?
And as they look towards the west,
you sleep soundly in your bed.

For what are they to you?
An enemy? Surely not.
You say your soul is pure,
but hell has saved your spot!

Written by,
Shelby I. Courtland
©2015 Shelby I. Courtland

Those of you who think of yourselves as Christian, you really need to take a deep and introspective look inside your ‘heart’ and come to terms with the fact that you are nothing more than a hypocrite. You sit in your places of worship and you bow your head and half of you are not even listening to the word of your ‘God’ because if you were, you would not sit idly by and let this country that you live in continue to rain drones down on the heads of innocent people in foreign lands. You would not continue to believe that in order to keep your worthless ass safe, it is imperative that your government continue to kill people who have done no wrong.

The reason that I am directing this one to the so-called Christians is because you are the very people who go on and on about ‘love thy neighbor’ and ‘do unto others as you would have them do unto you’ and so much more that is actually quite meaningless to you. You don’t care about anyone except for those who are in your own little cocooned world. But the thing is see? Your religious books speak of a loving ‘God’ that loves ALL people including those that have been touted out as your enemy. Be that as it may, you are supposed to continue to love them despite what others say to the contrary because that is what is in your holy books. So then, that makes you a hypocrite and it also makes you ‘selective’ in who you love because if you can love your own child but ignore the death of another’s child just because he/she lived in a different part of the world, then what does that say for what is in your ‘heart’? Get real about ‘religion’ or quit bullshitting yourself because that is exactly what you are doing every single time you see a picture of a child that was killed by drones that you pay for and yet you just simply look away because after all, he was no ‘kin’ of yours. But according to your religious books, yes he/she WAS!! Think on that! Meditate on it! Consider it and stop lying to yourself that you are about the business of love because not only are you a liar, you’re a two-faced, fake ass, conscienceless liar. You’re not good. Nor are you pious. And don’t even think that a confession is going to save you because the one that you’re confessing to is going the same route as you. They too have their spot in hell saved for them, just as you do. So, again, think on that!

 

Abortion! Why Make It About Race?

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According to statistics, Black women have more abortions than whites and Hispanics and the reasons given are that many Black women are poor and are often uneducated about the use of contraceptives and therefore, make poor decisions.

http://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2014/09/abortions-racial-gap/380251/

We all know how pregnancies happen. Insert dick inside vagina and voila, here comes baby or maybe not. There are two parties that are inserted into the mix to make a baby and to continuously blame women for finding themselves pregnant all by their lonesome is ludicrous and then to further blame Black women for aborting their babies at a higher rate than white women and Hispanics is just icing on the cake. Black women can do nothing right no matter how hard we try and you know what statisticians, I don’t give a fuck what you say about Black women and why we have abortions because it takes two to tango.

But I digress, first things first. Since we all know that sex is too pleasurable to be denied, unplanned pregnancies are going to occur. There are no sure fire birth control methods other than abstinence, which ain’t gonna happen, and sterilization, otherwise known as tubal ligation or vasectomies. And please, feel free to enlighten me if you’ve had a vasectomy and still managed to impregnate someone, the same with tubal ligation. Now, when I was in school, we were not taught sex education and my mother was like Beaver Cleaver’s mother, ‘the stork delivered us’ was her take on how babies came to be. I knew nothing of how babies came to be until I became of age to attend the prom. I was then handed a pamphlet that explained the process in clinical detail and was told by my mother that there was no way in hell that I would be attending the prom, only to return home, pregnant. I was told that intimacy between a male and a female was so excruciatingly painful, that death was to be wished for more.

My sisters and I were the most sexually repressed females ever to walk this planet, add into the mixture, the hellfire and brimstone that would be rained down on us by ‘god’ and we were afraid to wear skirts for fear of sperm finding its way into our secret garden. Geefuckingwhiz here! We all wore chastity belts, believe me!

How shocked I was when one of my friends came to me asking me where the clinic was so that she could get birth control pills. I mean, how would I know? Maybe they got delivered by the stork or were inside the drug store right next to the Anacin that my mother took, religiously. But somehow, my friend found out and asked me to drive her to the clinic. Unfortunately, her information was wrong and when I got back home, my mother was telling me that my friend had asked me to come and pick her up. The clinic that she wanted to go to was on the other side of town. She informed me the next day that she had gotten her birth control pills and that she was ready for ‘S-E-X’. Of course, I was wide-eyed with wonder and since I had been indoctrinated into the “you are a bad, bad girl if you have dirty thoughts” religion, I had to try and save her soul. So I commenced to letting her have it but she was having none of it. She had heard that sex was a beautiful thing and she had a boyfriend that was eager to get on with it.

My mother did not suspect that this friend of mine was not ignorant like I was to the ways of the world and so; she let me go off with her one day. She had lined up a guy for me. He was a friend of her boyfriend and a seemingly nice enough fella until when we were at the park, he pulled out what I soon found to be a joint and they proceeded to smoke it. I was appalled. I just knew that mother could see all of this and I knew ‘god’ was looking. I demanded to be taken home and I was. Unfortunately, the guy had fallen for me, they always do, and my friend invited me over her boyfriend’s house and there he was. This time, the straw that broke the camel’s back was that they insisted on playing a GASP, sex video. As soon as I saw the first naked body, I screeched and stormed out, demanding to be taken home! The guy sent me flowers the next day. And I remember this quite vividly because I was in my room and my baby sister ran into my room shouting that a florist van was parked in front of the house and mother was telling the delivery man that no one had ordered any flowers. He mentioned my name and the flowers were eventually transferred from his hands into my mother’s. When I came downstairs, my mother was all eyes and shrieking about fallen daughters, blah, blah, blah. The card that was addressed to me read, “Shelby, please accept these roses as my apology for hurting your feelings.” Oh, they were beautiful! Twelve long stemmed red roses and of course, my sisters were giggling and having quite the time witnessing the show.

So, what I am trying to say is that back in my day, many of us were so innocent about sex and had no clue. And even though my friend got herself on the pill, not everyone can or will and the only thing that probably saved me from having a ton of babies was the fact that I had been scared shitless at even the thought of S-E-X. Today, even though we are more aware of what goes on between the two sexes at an early age, it still makes no difference because young people are going to experiment and they are going to make mistakes. We all do. Youth is fleeting as we know and to continuously blame people for something that they really cannot control is ridiculous. I realize that having a baby is a big deal. It is another life that has to be taken care of and the care of that life is expensive and when teenagers are having babies, it is especially hard on the entire family because in many Black households, there is no one home to take care of the baby while the teen mother continues with her schooling. And it is so much easier on the male that had a hand in the conception of the child, but will never show the unmistakable signs of carrying a baby, will not be the one who has to nurture the child from infancy to adulthood, unlike the mother. There are many young men, regardless of color that will not step up to the plate and by them not doing so, it is then incumbent upon the female to make a decision as to what to do about an unplanned for pregnancy.

We must stop shaming and blaming particular ethnic groups for what they do or don’t do. We need to be there for our children and support them when they ‘mess up’ and get into situations, whatever they may be and stop making everything about race when it is all about human nature. We are all fallible and not one of us can lay claim to never having made a mistake in our entire life. This nonsense of what one race does to their detriment over another race is counterproductive and useless in the grand scheme of things. No, people are not as naïve as I once was as well as many others, well, maybe not that many, but be that as it may, abortions for whatever reason are I am sure, hard enough as it is to deal with without making it a Black or a white or a Hispanic issue and point the finger and say, “see, those people are always having abortions because of this, this and that. When will they ever learn?” The question is when will we ALL ever learn about humanity and stop the goddamn judging?