This Is How Racist Amerikkka Is: The Series, Part 2

On March 10, 2019, I posted a blog titled, “This Is How Racist AmeriKKKa Is – The Series, Part I” and I included documents to prove my point. I then posted a blog titled, “Mental Illness Is NOT Taken Seriously In America! Today,” and today I received a letter from the Commonwealth of Virginia Department of Health Professions in essence stating that the complaint I filed against psychiatrist Michael Emerson Judd had no relevance and therefore, Michael Emerson Judd would not face any disciplinary proceedings for what he initiated in regards to his negligence in caring for my severely mentally ill cousin that resulted in a FIFTEEN HOUR STANDOFF BETWEEN MY SUICIDAL COUSIN ARMED WITH KNIVES THREATENING TO COMMIT SUICIDE AND THE LYNCHBURG CITY POLICE/SWAT on January 22, 2019 and so the letter that I received from the Commonwealth of Virginia Department of Health Professions proves my point in that MENTAL ILLNESS IS NOT TAKEN SERIOUSLY IN AMERICA and THIS IS HOW RACIST AMERIKKKA IS!

Below is a copy of the letter stating the board’s intent to not initiate disciplinary proceedings against psychiatrist Michael Emerson Judd’s racist, negligent ass who practices racism and quackery out of Piedmont Psychiatric Center located at Centra Virginia Baptist Hospital 3300 Rivermont Avenue and Community Access Network both located in Lynchburg, VA 24501. And if you read the reviews about Piedmont Psychiatric Center, I can only shake my head over the fact that nothing will be done for the mentally ill who have no choice but to make use of that facility, not to mention that the loved ones of the mentally ill who have to make use of that facility will likewise suffer tremendously.

My cousin had been experiencing sleep deprivation for over ten months which is a symptom of Traumatic Brain Injury(TBI) and after begging his psychiatrist for help and receiving none as months and months of sleepless nights came and went, on January 22nd of this year, he took some knives and went to the railroad tracks, placed his head on the tracks in hopes that a train would come through and crush his skull. A passerby saw him and called 911 to report a possible mentally disturbed man on the railroad tracks. The police/SWAT arrived and a 15-hour standoff commenced. I know my cousin and when he did not come home when he usually does, I immediately checked the local news and of course, saw where there was a standoff with a mentally ill man. I called 911 and told them that it was my cousin involved in the standoff. They sent me a picture of him and of course, that was him. Later that night, in an attempt to get him to drop the knives and surrender, the police showed up at our door and had me on the phone while they produced a bullhorn of some sort to try and get through to him. It was to no avail. The standoff continued and only ceased after my cousin had been shot with bean bags and pellets that hurt so bad, he had no choice but to give up. His body is still covered in bruises, but at least he is still alive. He was transported to a Lynchburg General Hospital for evaluation and then transferred to Centra Virginia Baptist Hospital where he was placed on the psych ward for 5 days. He was given an injection, trazodone and gabapentin and then a taxi was called. He took the taxi to the police station whereupon they gave him his knives back(knives that they had taken from him after the 15-hour standoff). He came home with a bowie knife and a machete and several pocketknives. How that is even possible is still a mystery to me, hence the title of this blog post.

As a caregiver for the mentally ill, I can honestly say that it takes a toll on ones mental and physical health. I am not the person I used to be and I blame the mental health care system that is failing mentally ill people, those who care for them because no one else will, and society as a whole. I have tried to bring attention to the seriousness of the problem by writing letters to my local newspaper, to the Washington Post, the New York Times, The Guardian, The BBC, USAToday and yet not one of those entities is interested. Shows you just how much concern they have over the headlines that make the news regarding mentally ill people when they have killed 9 or 20 or 50 people. So long as they are basically perceived as a threat to themselves and to those who must care for them, who cares? The fact of the matter is that mental illness that is neglected or mistreated is more likely to result in a catastrophic situation. And those in the mental health care field are not doing their job. I can attest to that. Even those who are involved in the civil commitment process are not doing their job for if they had, my cousin would never have made it onto a Greyhound bus and left the state of Minnesota while he was under a civil commitment, but because his mental state was never taken seriously, this led to a horrifying chain of events.

No one is being held accountable for any of this, not the courts in Minnesota, nor the mental health care professionals who were responsible for the mistreatment of my cousin’s mental disorders. Those in Baltimore, MD were never held accountable for the fact that his mental illness was not taken seriously even though by then, he had a long history of attempted suicides. And where we are now, even though I have filed two complaints against his doctors and two investigations have commenced, the end result is “Based upon the information available for its thorough review, the Board has determined that it will NOT initiate disciplinary proceedings” even though the entire City of Lynchburg views my cousin as a public health threat since the FIFTEEN HOUR STANDOFF BETWEEN MY COUSIN/POLICE-SWAT and because of that, he has to have a mental ‘health’ case manager to make sure that he is receiving every available mental ‘health’ resource to maintain mental stability. AGAIN, this is why I say, “Mental Illness Is NOT Taken Seriously In America! Our cries for help went unanswered. A mere twelve days after we both begged and pleaded with his psychiatrist, Dr. Michael Emerson Judd, for help with his sleep deprivation, my cousin was involved in a 15-hour standoff with police/SWAT. How is that even possible when the signs were everywhere? And yet, were deliberately ignored and negligence on the part of Michael Emerson Judd has not been found, so says William L. Harp, Executive Director at the Virginia Board of Medicine.

So the next time a person is in the news for going the fuck off and shooting up 25 people, don’t expect anything to be done beyond what is being done, lip service about thoughts and prayers. They’ve certainly not helped my cousin or me. And please, by all means, re-read the section in the letter from William L. Harp, Virginia Board of Medicine thanking me for my “interest in public safety and protection and for bringing this matter to the Board’s attention.” What the hell for since not a goddamn thing is going to be done about the absolute negligence, stupidity, cluelessness, ineptness and a complete disregard for his patient that was displayed by psychiatrist, Michael Emerson Judd? These worthless shits don’t take this shit seriously because if they did, can you honestly say that you can understand why this fucker, William L. Harp, absolutely flat out refused to do a goddamn thing about that quack that calls himself “Dr. Michael Emerson Judd?” Seriously???!! His failure to address the serious mental issues that his patient was enduring resulted in a FIFTEEN HOUR STANDOFF BETWEEN HIS PATIENT AND THE POLICE/SWAT TEAM and that ain’t a goddamn problem at all??!! For the love of !!!!! I am just TOO goddamn through!!!! So yeah! Read this shit and fucking weep! Those bastards get off scot-free every single damn fucking time because they’re white goddamn it! Racism rules the fucking day!

…And The Proof Just Keeps On Coming That Mental Illness Is NOT Taken Seriously In America!

Here we go again!

Michigan authorities say a mom fatally shot her three children Monday before turning the gun on herself.

On Wednesday, Kent County officials identified Aubrianne Moore, 28, and her daughters Alaina Rau, 2, Cassidy Rodery, 6, and Kyrie Rodery, 8, as the four people found dead at a Grand Rapids home.

Aubrianne Moore used a bolt-action hunting-style rifle to fatally shoot her kids in a wooded area near their home. She then loaded their bodies into her car and returned home, where she killed herself outside the vehicle.

The sheriff’s spokesperson tells PEOPLE that authorities had been called to the home in the past. The calls were “mental health related issues.” Court documents reveal that Moore had a history of mental illness and suffered from hallucinations and schizophrenia. In September, Moore was declared a danger to herself and hospitalized for more than a week.

I just blogged about a young man in California who killed his mother, father and their housekeeper and now this. And now there is a message at the bottom of the article stating that if you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-TALK.

No one wanted to help me when I called the crisis line in an attempt to get help for my suicidal cousin. In fact, I was placed on hold while he was coming at me with knives and then I was told to call them back at 9:00a.m. Apparently, no one should attempt to commit suicide and call for crisis help at 4:00a.m. They must wait for the suicide/mental crisis regular office hours.

Three young children are dead, who had their whole lives ahead of them because, once again, mental illness is NOT taken seriously in America! I cannot stress this enough! How many innocent people must die before mental illness is taken seriously? Where was the follow-up care, otherwise known as ‘after care’ for this mother of three since only five months after having been sitting all up in the psych ward for being a danger to herself, this woman not only kills herself, but takes out her three small children? This is just unbelievably horrific! The children were aged 2, 6 and 8. And no one is going to be held accountable for their deaths because I am not blaming their mother because I know for a fact that she could have sought help until hell froze over and she still would have ended up doing what she did because there is no help. There is nowhere to turn because a short stint in the psych ward is not enough when a person has a lifelong mental illness. This woman was suffering from hallucinations and schizophrenia and that is nothing to play with. Whomever her doctor was, he/she has the blood of those innocent children on his/her hands because a mentally ill person is a vulnerable person and should be treated as such. A person who is a danger to themselves is also a danger to others. And I stated on another blog that the first people to get hurt and/or killed by a mentally ill person will be those who are family members or caregivers because they are in the danger zone and here we have three children, aged 2, 6 and 8….DEAD!

So now there is hand wringing and gnashing of teeth going on and pleas for suicidal people to call the Suicide Hotline. Aren’t they supposed to wait for Mental Health Awareness Month? Aren’t they supposed to wait for Suicide Prevention Week? Who is recognizing mental illness and suicide prevention on the off weeks and months? During the month or week set aside to address the issues of mental health and suicide, stories will abound, but afterwards, nothing is said until mentally ill people start going the fuck off and killing themselves and their children or killing their parents and the help. Now they want to throw in about calling the Suicide Hotline. Oh yes, now this is all “SO tragic” and “we need to do better, blah, blah, blah!” What the hell use are psychiatrists, psychologists and psych wards when it is quite apparent they they are doing fuck all about mental illness? What is their purpose? Why are they getting the big bucks? What the hell is their problem??!!! People are dying because those quacks sit back and utter gibberish at someone for 10 minutes and then it is on to the next ‘patient’. And if you don’t have insurance….well now…just cure yourself! This is just unbefuckingbelievable!

I just posted about my cousin’s suicide attempt on January 22nd and then I posted about a man who murdered his mother, father and their housekeeper earlier today and now this. This is just never going to stop! Look at those children in the above photo. They are dead. Their mother is dead; took a shotgun to them and to herself because in her mind of hallucinations and schizophrenia, she just could not make sense out of her life. There were those who were supposed to help her put it all back together and be there for her when it all unraveled because make no mistake, medications always need adjusting, medications stop working and some people stop taking them because of all the bad side effects and so mentally ill people need constant monitoring. That is obvious. Her children had quite obviously been in danger since the police stated that they had been to her house several times due to mental illness problems and for domestic civil disputes. And since she had been in the hospital a mere five months ago for being a danger to herself, then that automatically qualified her to be a danger to her children since they were to be in her immediate vicinity when she was let out of the psych ward. Believe you me, they don’t keep you very long in a psych ward. There are too many waiting on a slot and so there is no incentive to keep people in for as long as they need to be in. I know because my cousin should have been placed in a facility because if he had, he would not be in the condition he is in today; sitting somewhere with multiple scars from a fractured skull, broken neck, broken back, fractured right leg with chunks missing out of it, bullets poking out of his buttocks, bullet fragments in his bladder, scars from surgery all up and down his stomach, a head that is lopsided because his skull had to be taken off and put back on again minus some of it and I could go on and on. The man’s body looks like he has been in a hundred wars and all because mental illness is NOT taken seriously in America!

Because I have whooped and hollered and threw sixteen fits, my cousin is now receiving injections again, has a case manager that he is going to see tomorrow and another investigation is about to commence against his doctors and the medical board called me today to inform me that I would indeed, be receiving a copy of what the investigation uncovers and any disciplinary action taken against his doctors….AND I am going to address City Council on the 27th of this month and most likely get hauled off and arrested because I am going to go the fuck off! I finally received a call today that I am scheduled to address City Council and believe me, there will be many who will lose their hearing at that meeting; this I can promise you! I am not trying to become a statistic; murdered by my mentally ill loved one and if no one else will look out for me, then I will!

And so for those of you who are in a similar predicament, what you should know is that you must continue to try and have your voice heard. Call the medical board! Call City Council. Call the newspapers. Call everyone out! Just don’t sit and suffer in silence because you may very well end up silenced, permanently like those poor children were silenced. I know it is tough, but you have got to be your own advocate because no one else is going to do it. I am located in Virginia. If you think that there is anything that I can provide as to resources or how to get your city involved and the medical board involved where you live, please leave a comment in the comment section. Your information will not be posted since I monitor ALL comments. Reach out to other people who are going through this. This is why I told my story and why I am posting about how prevalent murder/suicide is where mental illness is concerned. Thoughts and prayers don’t get it done for if they did, I am quite sure the loved ones of this woman who just killed her children and herself would have moved heaven and earth with prayers for this not to have happened. Likewise, the loved ones of the man who just killed his mother, father and their housekeeper would have done the same. Don’t think that you can go it alone because you can’t. Reach out! There are people out there like me who care! And I intend to start a support group for people who care for their mentally ill loved ones. If you are in Central Virginia, leave a comment if you are interested in starting your own support group! Again, don’t be the next victim in a news article of this nature. There are more people in your neck of the woods who are in the same boat as you. We need to support each other!

Ho Hum! Another Mass Shooting By A White Man

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You know, this is becoming quite redundant and actually, I have not read one report, article or blog on this most recent mass shooting that occurred in Las Vegas. I only read several headlines since you cannot miss them if you tried.

From what I gather, another upset ‘white’ man went on a killing spree and shot up a bunch of people at some country music venue. Imagine that! And I am quite sure the usual tired talking points were expounded upon on channel after channel with reporters attempting to look as somber as possible while inwardly, they were all but shaking with glee to have something to report on other than the recent destruction of Puerto Rico by Hurricanes Irma and Maria. Puerto Rico, with your woes, step aside especially since Mr. Bankruptcy himself, President Donald Trump, has blamed the island nation for its woes claiming that, well…read it for yourself.

Donald J. Trump

@realDonaldTrump

Texas & Florida are doing great but Puerto Rico, which was already suffering from broken infrastructure & massive debt, is in deep trouble..

Puerto Rico is “suffering from broken infrastructure & massive debt?” Is he serious? The entire U.S. is “suffering from broken infrastructure & massive debt” and this fool wants to concentrate on that when the people of Puerto Rico are dealing with no food, water, access to electricity, telephones; the whole nine yards. Donald Trump is ALL heart! And please note the sarcasm.

But as usual, I digress. I chalk it up to getting older.

Back to the ‘disgruntled white mass murderer’. Let me guess! He was ‘mentally ill’. His mommy didn’t change his diapers often enough when he was a baby. His daddy walked out on them just when he needed a father figure the most. He was bullied in school. He could never get the pretty girls. He was a loner. His dog died and he became bereft and drifted about. He had loads of money and did not know what to do with all of it and so he bought himself an armload of eye candy who took him for everything he was worth and so he decided to take his anger out on others. Am I getting hotter?

But I am sure the media is not calling this ‘white’ man, a terrorist or a thug. Oh! No way! Those designations are for Muslims and Blacks. This man just needed some meds and some counseling and he’d of never done this deed. I am also guessing that he’s dead and so no explanation is to be forthcoming from him and the news is ripe with speculation and innuendo. Every CNN reporter, MSNBC reporter, ABC, NBC, CBS and so forth and so on are going on and on about this poor man’s mental state at the time of this mass shooting. “Oh what terrible, horrible life this man must have led to lead him to do something of this nature!” We have got to do something about the lack of available slots for the mentally ill!” “We need more background checks…yep…background checks would have stopped this!” Sigh!

For the love of !!! Give me a damn break! No amount of background checks in the world would have stopped this mass shooting just as it will not stop the next and the next. There are so many guns in the hands of Americans that there is just no way to disarm the people of this country. The NRA will not stand for it. And there will be shouts that by disarming ‘mentally stable’, law-abiding Americans this will cause only criminals to have access to guns. We’ve heard it all before and we shall hear it again. But you know what? I’m not one bit upset by this most recent mass shooting because I am still reeling from the murder of Trayvon Martin, Renisha McBride, Aiyana Mo’nay Stanley-Jones,  Sandra Bland, Walter Scott, John Crawford, Philando Castile, Freddie Gray, Keith  Childress, Bettie Jones, Kevin Matthews, Michael Noel, Leroy Browning, Roy Nelson, Miguel Espinal, Nathaniel Pickett, Tiara Thomas, Cornelius Brown, Jamar Clark, Richard Perkins, Michael Lee Marshall, Alonzo Smith, Anthony Ashford, Dominic Hutchinson, Lamontez Jones, Rayshaun Cole, Paterson Brown, Christopher Kimble, Junior Prosper, Keith McLeod, Wayne Wheeler, Lavante Biggs, India Kager, Tyree Crawford, James Carney III, Felix Kumi, Asshams Manley, Christian Taylor, Troy Robinson, Brian Day, Michael Sabbie, Billy Ray Davis, Samuel Dubose, Darrius Stewart, Albert Davis, Salvado Ellswood, George Mann, Jonathan Sanders, Freddie Blue, Victo Larosa III, Spencer McCain, Kevin Bajoie, Zamiel Crawford, Jermaine Benjamin, Kris Jackson, Kevin Higgenbotham, Ross Anthony, Richard Gregory Davis, Curtis Jordan, Markus Clark, Lorenzo Hayes, De’Angelo Stallworth, Dajuan Graham, Brandon Glenn, Reginald Moore, Nuwnah Laroche, Jason Champion, Bryan Overstreet, David Felix, Terry Lee Chatman, William Chapman, Samuel Harrell and the list is endless. These Black people were killed by KKKops and they were unarmed, some of them were mentally ill and posed no threat to anyone, some were killed by police who were engaged in high speed chases which had nothing to do with who they killed and not one KKKop that murdered any of the aforementioned has been charged with a crime but I am quite sure that ALL mainstream media reporters have now jumped on the KKKops aka ‘first responders bandwagon, praising them to the high heavens for rushing to the scene of this mass shooting. But what mainstream media reporter has given any attention to these people who were murdered? HA! That’ll be the day! This is mass murder. Oh indeed, it is! But you see, mass murder of Black people by racist KKKops is just business as usual. Nothing to see here. Move along.

But now that we’ve come to Mr. Misunderstood Mentally Ill Affluenza, well we’ve just got to make excuses for his heinous crime. It is not his fault. He is a victim of ‘white privilege’ and us Black folks had just best be glad that we don’t suffer the effects of this most serious of privileged afflictions. No, I will not be getting out the purple crepe and the black armbands, nor will I offer up any stupid, useless ‘prayers’ because so long as ‘whites’ continue to worship their guns even as they sit up in church with them strapped to their side, mass murder of ‘innocent’ people will continue and don’t they know it. You people are so deranged and depraved that you don’t even care that you’re probably next. You’ve got your gun strapped to your hip and you’re badass. No, you’re not! You’re stupid! And you’re a fool if you believe that that gun will protect you because you’ll be hit when you least expect it, just like the 59 who got whacked by a murdering, privileged ‘white’ terrorist. When have I ever tread lightly for your sake? It hasn’t happened and don’t hold your breath waiting for me to do so for if you do, you’ll be just as dead as those 59 country music concert goers in Las Vegas; Sin City. Go figure! And while you’re at it, figure out that you will die by that which you so love, your damn guns! Oh, and before I forget, I hear tell that you now want guns with silencers. I sincerely hope you get your wish, silenced!

There Is A Simple Solution To ‘Ramsomware’, But You Don’t Want To Hear It!

 

What is this ‘Wannacry ransomware’ or ‘WannaCrypt ransomware’?

‘Ransomware’ is a type of malicious software designed to block access to a computer system until a sum of money is paid.

On Friday, the world experienced the wrath of a well-coordinated ransomware attack, known as WannaCrypt. The attack caused Britain’s NHS to cancel surgeries, a wide array of Russian and Chinese private and public institutions to be crippled most of the day, and the rest of the world to recoil in shock.

How could a single piece of malware that exploited a vulnerability identified long ago by the NSA, and leaked last month by a group called the Shadow Brokers, wreak so much havoc?

Yes indeed, how could this malware have wreaked so much havoc? It’s simple. Because we are stupid. We have grown so dependent on technology and artificial intelligence that we have lost our intelligence. In handing over every aspect of our lives to machines, we have given up any privacy we had which includes our medical records, our social security number; our very identity. This is why we are constantly hearing of identity theft and this has produced another corporation to operate in order to ‘restore our good name’ and to take back what was stolen from thieves, for a price, of course.

Now along comes this ransomware software that has been holding computer systems hostage until money is paid in the form of Bitcoin. If there were no computers, would this have even happened? Of course not.

The article goes on to state that Britain’s National Health Service had to cancel surgeries. Would the NHS have had to cancel surgeries a mere thirty years ago? No! Because medical records were kept in the form of folders in a file cabinet. You remember those, don’t you? Your doctor came into the exam room with your paper file and in it were your medical records and all that was needed to ensure that you’d had all of your immunizations, checkups and any upcoming medical events. You received a telephone call to remind you of any preparations you needed to make before surgery and guess what, we did fine. But now, since all medical records are electronic and are at the mercy of anyone who wants to underhandedly try and hold them for ‘ransom’, we’ve got a problem. This is only the beginning. You can’t see how easy it is for your information to end up in the hands of those who seek to profit from it? All the hacking of your credit/debit cards taught you nothing? Of course not because you are still handing them over. You don’t even remember a time before there were credit/debit cards, do you? More’s the pity because we were all the better for it.

What we have here is ‘civilization’, is it not? And how well is that working out for us? We are so happy, aren’t we? Can’t you tell just by going on Facebook and Twitter? Isn’t everyone just loving all up and down on each other? No one is sending vitriolic comments back and forth. Family members are not blocking one another over political differences, are they? Can you not see what is happening to us? We are descending, not into civilized mode, but into such boorish, uncouth and vulgar behavior, we would put Neanderthals to the blush. But we have all the creature comforts we could possibly want; electricity, running water, indoor toilets, computers, video games, garage door openers, devices that turn on/off our lights, open our doors, alarms for our homes, vehicles to get us to where we want to go, airplanes to get us there even faster and trains for the view. We’ve got it all. And this has made us most happy. So, why then, this?

HOUSTON —
Americans actually report being among the most unhappy people in the world.
Anti-depressant usage has increased 400 percent since 1994. So why are so many people may be unhappy, and what you can do to change that?

According to the Center for Disease Control and Prevention, about one in 10 adults in America reports being clinically depressed.

It’s probably more than that. Why are we unhappy? We’ve got it all, don’t we? We’ve got ALL the creature comforts and so then, why are we depressed? Why are we on opioids? Why are we committing suicide at alarming rates?

Suicide; The Saddest Trend
“America is in the grip of a sustained raise in the suicide rate across all age groups and for both sexes. From 1999 to 2014, the suicide rate rose by 24%. The numbers are adjusted to take account of aging. Men shoot themselves; women take poison. There has been a rise in suffocation and strangulation.”

Add to this the fact that we are a nation of addicts, as well.

Inside a Killer Drug Epidemic: A Look at America’s Opioid Crisis

Opioid addiction is America’s 50-state epidemic. It courses along Interstate highways in the form of cheap smuggled heroin, and flows out of “pill mill” clinics where pain medicine is handed out like candy. It has ripped through New England towns, where people overdose in the aisles of dollar stores, and it has ravaged coal country, where addicts speed-dial the sole doctor in town licensed to prescribe a medication.

Public health officials have called the current opioid epidemic the worst drug crisis in American history, killing more than 33,000 people in 2015. Overdose deaths were nearly equal to the number of deaths from car crashes. In 2015, for the first time, deaths from heroin alone surpassed gun homicides.

Again I ask, why are we a nation of addicts when we should be celebrating ALL that we have in the form of technology? Technology has given us all of our creature comforts. We don’t have to use a washboard to do our laundry like our grandmothers had to do. We don’t have to go out back and use the toilet like many of our folks in the south had to do. We don’t have to dry our clothing on the clothesline. We’ve got dryers for that. We’ve got microwaves so we don’t have to wait to eat. We’ve got mixers so we can beat that cake batter so much faster. We’ve got a device that will even open and close our window blinds for us. Look at all the gadgets we’ve got. Hell! Even our car can park itself and some can drive without us. And soon, kiosks are coming to fast food restaurants and so we don’t even have to bother with ordering our fast food from a person, we’ll just punch in on a screen what we want and voila, our order is complete. So why are we unhappy, pill popping, suicidal, stressed out and willing to be held hostage by malware? I’ll tell you why. This is not civilization. This is not paradise. This is us aiding and abetting in our own demise. This is what those who are behind the scenes had in store for us all the time.

We are a Social Security number, a credit score, a zip code, an insurance risk, a medical records number on a computer, but we are never, ever seen as human and so we don’t even think of each other as human and this is why we treat each other like shit. This is not civilization. This is a dystopian society; a society of human oppression, misery and disease. And we are all held hostage by the very devices we think we need in order to exist. We don’t need these things. These ‘things’ need us. Those who implement these ‘things’ and who control these ‘things’ need us. We don’t need them. We work because we think we need to and we are only prolonging our misery and our suffering and those who put this all into play are counting on us never realizing and waking up to the fact that we are aiding and abetting in assuring that our suffering and misery will continue until we either get so depressed, we take drugs or we just step up on a stool, put a rope around our necks and then step off that stool.

Why is money important? Who made money important? What do you think would happen if there was a hacker who could bring down our entire electric grid? Oh I’ve read articles telling us that ‘90% of us would be dead in no time flat’. That is just not true. Those of us who are alive today just cannot remember a time when there was no power grid to begin with. Did those people die? Did they all starve? If they did, we would not be here. Think about that. Our so-called creature comforts which are a direct result of an electric grid are what is standing between us and the simple things in life that were all we needed until we were told otherwise. We were told that we needed to buy a house and so get a mortgage. Go to the bank and hock yourself for 30 years and then work for someone to pay for that house because that was the American dream. And millions of us did just that. We were told that the horse and buggy was too slow. Now, you have an automobile and is it getting you where you want to go any faster? Those hours you spend sitting in traffic, a horse could have galloped by you multiple times. And you would not be choking on carbon dioxide fumes. The Amish don’t seem to mind getting around via horse and buggy or not having electricity and so then why are we willingly going along with this ‘Utopia’ which is anything but? Who is controlling us? Who is getting rich off us? Who made the barter system obsolete? Who got us hating one another since we feel we don’t need each other or that we can’t depend on each other like we used to do so many, many years ago?

You see, the so-called ‘elites’ are counting on us not waking up to the realization that money could be made redundant just as they would be if we no longer gave money any value. And to devalue money, to make money worthless is to quit buying and to not buy into the fallacy that without money, life would end. Life would actually begin without money. Think about it. Why have they made it illegal to live off-grid? Because by doing so, you are not giving money any value. You have devalued money. You’ve made it redundant. You’ve made those who’ve made money mean everything to us, redundant and so therefore, there would be no place for them, no use for them and no use for money. We would actually need each other, depend on each other which is what we used to do.  The cops and the military are only there to protect the interests of the ‘elites’. They are there to serve them, not us. And you cannot see this?

I remember when I was growing up, there used to be what was called, ‘rent parties’. If someone did not have enough to pay their rent, folks in the neighborhood would host dinners and every mother would cook and offer plates of food to be sold at the ‘rent party’  and the money would be handed over to tide the person who lost their job over until they got back on their feet. Now, we use ‘GoFundMe’. But the thing about that is, could it be caught up in the next ‘ransomware’ attack and the money stolen by hackers? Again, just something to think about.

It is really sad when there is an epidemic of drug addicts and suicides. It is really sad when people have allowed themselves to be played for that ‘almighty dollar’. And the sad fact is that churches are part of the problem. If ‘Jesus’ could preach by the Sea of Galilee, then why the need for all of these palaces of worship? If Jesus had nothing but contempt for what he called, ‘the moneychangers’ and began to cast them out of the temple, what does that tell you about how Jesus felt about money? You cannot have it both ways; worship Jesus and money. You don’t worship, nor do you adhere to the teachings of Jesus because if you did, you would ‘leave your worldly goods behind and follow him’. But you’re hypocrites because you won’t do that. You are the ‘moneychangers’; the hypocrites that Jesus cast out of the temple. Money is not buying us happiness. Money is only buying us someone else’s illusion of ‘happiness’ and it’s not working for millions, if not billions of us. Think about it.

And Jesus said,

What see I here? Shall my Father’s house be thus dishonored? Is this the house of God, or is it a market-place? How can the strangers who come from the land of the Gentiles to worship God perform their devotions in this tumult of usury? And you,” he continued, advancing a step toward the priests, who stared at him in amazement, “You priests, guardians of the temple, can you see this abomination and permit it to continue? Woe be unto you! He who searches the heart knows why you encourage such disorder. “Away with you from here, servants to Mammon! I command it. Take what belongs to you and quit the holy place!”

Although I am not religious because religion has been turned into whatever your preacher deems it is, I am sure that you can see your own church or house of worship in the above paragraph. And so what does that say for you? Think about it while you’re sitting in traffic choking on fumes and playing with your smartphone.  Think about the fact that the reason why you won’t do anything about your situation other than become a drug addict or commit suicide is because we have been made soft and pliable and this is why despite all of our so-called creature comforts, we are the most depressed, drug addicted suicidal ‘people’ that never lived! And those who put this all into play are counting on our very acquiescence; our submission to the continued status quo and we will not disappoint them.

“VA Suicide Hotline! Hold, Please!”

VA suicide hotline

Exclusive: VA suicide hotline workers ripped for failing vets

The VA, has been swamped with calls since opening in 2007. The volume increased from fewer than 10,000 in 2007 to more than 500,000 last year, according to a recent Government Accountability Office report.

A 2010 calculation by the VA estimates that 22 veterans kill themselves each day. The VA, which has not updated that estimate, says the hotline “rescues” 30 veterans from suicide each day.

Wow! The VA is swamped with calls from veterans who need help in dealing with their many issues relative to having been deployed to warzones. The report goes on to say that many VA workers are leaving their post early.

Some workers handle only one to five calls each day and leave before their shifts end even though phone lines have gotten busier, the emails say. As a result, 35% to 50% of the calls roll over to back-up centers where workers have less training to deal with the emotional problems of former service members.

So, the people who are trained to deal with potential suicides handle only one to five calls a day? For real? And after having listened to one suicidal former service member, they are out the door and oh what a great day it is, eh? Then, those who are on backup are sitting somewhere looking cross-eyed for lack of training or know-how in dealing with the ’emotional problems’ that they are hearing from the former servicemen. Go figure!

In February, an Inspector General investigation revealed that some of the in-coming calls early last year had rolled over to back-up centers and gone to voicemail.

Suicide calls of former service members went to voicemail???!!! Get the fuck outta here! They are actually saying that someone who we all ‘thank for their service to this country’ was in desperate need of some anti-suicide help and their plea for help went to voicemail? Surely, they jest?

I guess the calls went something like this!

Former service member to VA suicide hotline: “Sob! Sob! Hello! My name is John and I just cannot take the fact that I pissed on dead Afghan corpses(dead because I killed them) again and again when I was deployed in Afghanistan and now, my mind is a mess. I realize that I became a military whore for the express purpose of making warmongers ever more richer and I am just not down with that anymore. I’d rather kill myself. And I, uh……what’s that?”

VA  suicide hotline voicemail: “Hello! You have reached the Department of Veterans Affairs Suicide Hotline and while we ‘thank you for your service’, your estimated wait time to speak with a suicide hotline representative is 72 hours. So, kindly hold that suicide thought and call us back when we are less busy.” Click!

Here is an idea, forward the calls to the White House! Veterans, if you are feeling suicidal, call your ex-Commander-in-Chief, Barack Insane Obama, he is the reason you are feeling suicidal, he and John McCain, Dick Cheney, Hillary Clinton, George W. Bush, Lindsey Graham and all the other warmongers and war hawks that insist that  continuous wars lead to peace. No one should have to listen to your mental problems because you chose to sign on the dotted line to go fuck people up who had done you no personal harm. Now, even the VA is telling you to take responsibility for your own actions. The employees that are walking away from their posts early are telling you that they don’t want to hear you whine and complain about your PTSD, your night terrors and your bouts of depression. I would not want to hear them either. If you called me, I would tell you to go to hell, which is the same thing the VA is telling you to do. When they don’t answer your calls for anti-suicide help, they are telling you to stop bluffing and just ‘do yourself in’ already. They are not your priest and so therefore, have no reason in the world to want to hear your confession before you suck on a shotgun or hang yourself. You should have thought about what it would mean when someone put a loaded gun into your hands. What did you think they wanted you to do with a loaded gun? Sell it at a gun auction? You went through basic training and so you knew what was expected of you and you had every opportunity in the world to disengage yourself from the military before being shipped out to kill or be killed.

Those who you whore yourselves out to don’t give a damn about your mental disorders when you come back for if they did, do you really think that what is going down at the VA would continue to go down? Hell no! It has been stated by the head of the VA that wait times for former service members to receive necessary medical care has been likened to lines at Disneyworld and still you think that someone gives a shit about your problems? Get real! You were just expendable cannon fodder to the warmongers who were only too glad to have you get fucked up to keep the war machine revved up and when you are of no further use to anyone, including yourselves, why, the warmongers want you to just die already. They know what goes on at the VA and yet despite all hell, the VA is synonymous with outrageous wait times, indifferent medical services and unmanned suicide hotlines.

I have some advice for the former service members who are thinking of killing themselves. If this is the route that you feel you must go, then try not to take out innocent people when you kill yourselves. It is the least you could do seeing as how the predicament that you are in, lies squarely on your shoulders. And though it may seem as though I am not sympathetic to your plight, it is because I am not sympathetic to your plight because I have enough sense to know that if I pick up a weapon, that means that I intend to use it. If I don’t pick up a weapon, then I don’t intend to use it and if someone tells me to suit up and board a plane, after having put a gun into my hands, then that means that I expect to kill or to be killed and that is not something that I am willing to do. You refuse to give ‘peace’ a chance and then you wonder why you can find no peace within your own mind? When have you ever known peace and a gun to go hand in hand?

So no, I am not at all upset with the Department of Veterans Affairs for not coming through for you in your time of need because you would not be in need if you had not already lost all of your ‘humanity’ when you decided that the only way to effect peace was to launch a missile, a drone or by using a gun! Deal with the consequences of your own actions…or not!

He Committed A Terrorist Act!

 

lubitz and jihadi john

ISIS lopped off a couple of heads

And Jihadi John is terrorist number one.

Now, along comes whitey white

Who put a plane on stun

 

But no terrorist is he called

His mental illness, we’ll define

One hundred and fifty people are dead

Where do we draw the line?

 

Why is Jihadi John, a terrorist

While suicidal whitey is not?

They both killed innocent people

And for that, they both should rot!

 

But whitey white gets a pass

Just like he’s always done.

The brown man is so scary

And he is the only one.

 

Poor fucked up head Lubitz

He really could not cope

His illness is the reason

One hundred and fifty people had no hope

 

The hopes and dreams are gone

For the people aboard that plane

The search for answers continues

While their families deal with the pain.

 

He committed a terrorist act

And what I say, you know is true

He terrorized those people

The plane’s passengers and its crew.

Written by,

Shelby I. Courtland

©2015 Shelby I. Courtland

I am real tired of this hypocritical shit! When someone of Middle Eastern descent lops off a few heads, he immediately gets labeled a ‘terrorist’ and he’s a very, very bad man. Stop the goddamn presses! But along comes Andreas Lubitz, son of a successful business executive and his mother a piano teacher his family could well afford the cost of flying lessons at his local club, Luftorts Club Westerwald and let us pat the fact on the fucking head of his having a mental disorder and since he most likely suffered from affluenza, why we will just consider his actions, the result of a failed mental health institution and a breakdown in communications between his employer and his medical doctors that tragically claimed the lives of one hundred and forty nine innocent people and one fucked up in the head individual. This is all so sad and disturbing, but that’s life. Nothing to see here. Move along folks.

Well here in Courtland land, whitey white does not get a free goddamn pass. No fucking way. If Jihadi John is a terrorist then so is Andreas Lubitz. I don’t care how white he is, he is a goddamn terrorist and is no better than Jihadi John. If Lubitz was so disturbed that he wanted to off himself, then there are many ways to do so, but to intentionally get behind the controls of an airbus and take out 149 people who are just trying to get from point A to point B is TERRORISM! You don’t think that those people were terrified when they realized what was about to happen? Did Lubitz really need to make an IMPACT of epic proportions because of his sick, twisted little mind shenanigans? Even if in his eyes, he wanted to go out in a blaze of glory, why did he not rent a Cessna and promptly crash it upon takeoff? He WANTED to commit an act that would get him notoriety and he did it because he could. So,in here, Andreas Lubitz joins the ranks of the terrorists!

This all goes back to that new diagnosis that really is all about shit called, ‘affluenza’ where white shits are just so misunderstood and disturbed when they commit atrocities and they don’t need to be defined as a terrorist or get jail time or to be considered, a criminal, they just need understanding. Anybody that’s got a permanent tan of some sort that commits an atrocity, why let’s get to locking those criminals up. They don’t have any extenuating circumstances or mental disorders. Are you fucking kidding? They are criminals and terrorists; now label them so and either lock them up or send a missile up their ass! That’s how we deal with them! But even though Lubitz sent shrapnel up everybody’s ass on that plane, he was just a misunderstood, suicidal good guy that just needed the right treatment. Sob Sob for Lubitz! In here? Hell if we do! I don’t fucking recognize ‘ white shit affluenza’!

 

 

 

“Gooooooooooooooooodbye, Vietnam!”

Good morning Vietnam

What a shame! What a pity! Who would have guessed? What could he possibly have lacked in his life? He had a loving family. He was rich and famous and funny. His name was a household word and still, he suffered from depression and addictions.

How could he have been depressed when surrounded by so many people and shown so much love by his family and friends and co-workers? Why did he not seek out the clergy and convey his deepest and most darkest thoughts to an audience that is paid to listen to such? Why did he take the final leap into the abyss of death? Death by hanging. It sounds like a mystery novel of great suspense, something from an Agatha Christie novel or M.C. Beaton or Robert Barnard. Let us find his killer; that elusive enemy of the mind known as depression. Where did it go and how can we make it pay?

Have we not taken the stigma out of mental illness? We’ve certainly talked about it often enough. Haven’t we? I mean, it’s not exactly uncommon for a person to suffer from depression. At some point in time, who hasn’t? But we pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off and we go on with the business of life. We don’t wallow in darkness and sadness and gloom. We reach for the light and laughter and gaiety and all things fun and funny. He was our funny guy. Where is he? He is supposed to make us laugh and keep OUR demons at bay. How can he have been just as human as the rest of us? We put him on a pedestal and once there, he could not let us down. He had to put on a brave face for the world, every single day as it was expected of him. That is why he was paid the big bucks and owned the big houses and expensive cars.

Was it too much to ask him to don a wig, put on a dress and become Mrs. Doubtfire? He had only to tell us that he hated being called Mrs. Doubtfire. We would have understood. It was all in fun. He knew it was just a character. He was still a man playing a role. That is what acting is all about. Why couldn’t he have kept up the act, continued playing a role of funny man, actor, father, husband, friend, associate?

But alas, what comes with fame and fortune? The need to continue living a lavish lifestyle despite marriage and divorce and marriage and divorce and children and another marriage and the sitcom fails and the big screen beckons once again and the toll it all takes on an aging body and the need for an emotional escape from it all. It is too much, too overbearing and I would be cut dead on Rodeo Drive if I got out of my second hand Toyota Rav4. Oh the shame of it and after I had once sent such expensive gifts to friends. How I would be laughed AT, the brunt of jokes, the outcast, instead of the bearer of jokes and one of the cast?

Oh no, the doctor says that I have Parkinson’s! What am I to do? The bills! The ex-wives! My lifestyle! Dear God, help me! If the tabloids get wind of this, they’ll run with it while I have to be funny and put on a brave face all the while knowing that the show must go on! I cannot fail! To know such anguish! Such shame! It is not to be endured. What use is rehab? I want a drink! I am not cured! Why? Why? Why? My life is over!

“Gooooooooooooooooodbye, Vietnam!”

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Good_Morning,_Vietnam

The 63-year-old was found dead at his home in Tiburon, California, on Monday. He is believed to have hung himself.
Williams had recently sold his California ranch, and there was speculation that he was experiencing money problems.
“There are bills to pay. My life has downsized, in a good way. I’m selling the ranch up in Napa. I just can’t afford it anymore,” he told Parade magazine.

http://www.ibtimes.co.uk/robin-williams-resented-having-do-mrs-doubtfire-sequel-1461415

We must all realize that there is still a stigma associated with mental illness, just as there is a stigma associated with poverty. People cannot help being mentally ill nor can they help being poor and the two need not go hand in hand. Those who have experienced fame and wealth feel that they will become ostracized if it becomes well-known that they are afflicted with an illness of the mind. The pretense must be kept up at ALL cost and unfortunately, some pay the ultimate cost. They escape the only way they know will finish it completely and finally, by the taking of their own lives. Many of us cannot understand how a person could become so depressed for whatever reason that they feel that the solution is death. But as you can see, such is the case and unfortunately, Robin Williams will not be the last. There are so many Robin Williams who are nameless and faceless and who had people who loved them but because Robin Williams was considered a ‘success’, his death is all the more shocking because it was assumed that he had it all. His addictions are nothing new! Hell! That’s like a right of passage in the world of entertainment. Who hasn’t been in rehab for drugs and drink? Many would be surprised if a famous actor, actress, comedian, singer hadn’t been in rehab. In fact, rehab has no meaning anymore. It’s like a revolving door. They say you’re good to go until you return and return, you will.

But keep in mind that we only talk about mental illness and the stigma attached to it when some famous person is found to have been suffering from a mental illness and subsequently kills him or herself. It does not bother us to know that everyday people of no particular fame or fortune are committing suicide because of their inability to cope and they run completely out of hope. We can never know, even family members, a spouse or anyone close to a person that is suffering from mental illness, just what is going on inside their head that would cause them to wish themselves, dead.

We have created a society whereas stress is overwhelming many and with it comes hopelessness and despair. The need to keep up with the Joneses is of paramount importance and if we cannot keep up the pretense, we have failed. We all fail these people because we continue to perpetuate the belief that you are indeed a failure if you cannot maintain the status quo and smile all the while. Until we change what we have deemed important; money, fame, big houses, fancy cars, lavish living, ‘Robin Williams syndrome’ will become even more of an epidemic. Count on it.

A white man hangs himself
while a Black man gets lynched.
Oh the vagaries of life
they just make no goddamn sense!

Written by,
Shelby I. Courtland
©2014 Shelby I. Courtland

Haunted!

Iraq_Vet

We sat shoulder to shoulder as we were both shipped off to war.
Two soldiers who for better or worse as on an oath, we swore
to fight for freedom and democracy and for the home we both love.
Who would have thought that I’d be here while he’s watching from above.

He was my comrade in arms and we had each other’s back.
But I made it home and he did not and that is one cold fact.
I don’t know why but they say to me that I am the lucky one.
Is it because I made it back or because still I hold this gun?

I remember the gritty sands of the desert was all we ever saw.
My wounds will never heal, they’re still open, sore and raw.
I see him standing over there in the bright sunlight of day.
There is sorrow in his eyes for there is much he wants to say.

He would tell his wife and newborn son how much he yearns for them.
I know why he comes to me, I know why I still see him.
When he died right next to me, he gasped and tried to speak.
I leaned real close to hear him, his breath fanned on my cheek.
He whispered clear these words and they were meant for me.
“I promise to haunt every soldier throughout eternity.”


Written by,
Shelby I. Courtland
©2014 Shelby I. Courtland

What Is Wrong IN My Life?

addictions

So many temptations to get me high,
Or could it be that I really want to die?

Sell me crystal meth, I’ve developed a need.
This shit is so good, even my demons recede.

When I drink it’s because I want to forget
all the horrible things I’ve come to regret.

And if I shoot up heroin,
don’t I know it’s a sin.

But it takes away the pain
Though, it’s all in vain.

These are the escapes that I do crave.
And yes to some, I give in; I cave.

What is wrong in my life?
Should I end it with a knife?

With so many voices in my head,
will they leave me when I’m dead?

When the pain of life gets too hard to bear,
the soul of man is filled with despair.

Note:I’ve tweaked this abit because those of us who love to write, for us, we can never get it ‘right’.

This one is about the ‘demons’ that many of us try to escape from. Life for many is just too damn horrible to contemplate, sober and in the U.S. alone, escapism by way of drugs has become an epidemic. Regardless of socioeconomic factors, it has crossed all barriers. It is not respective of income or education or even geographical location. People are using/needing drugs to escape from pain of the body, from the pain of the mind.

Written by,
Shelby I. Courtland
©2014 Shelby I. Courtland

I Am Sick Because I Don’t Want To Fuck!

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Seriously? Yes indeed! If you are female and your mate says, “honey, let’s fuck!” And you say, “fuck off!” THAT is an ILLNESS!!!

“A drugmaker working to develop a pill to boost sexual desire in women says regulators are demanding more studies on the experimental drug.”

Apparently, psychiatrists have determined that females not wanting to fuck are diagnosed as having, “hypoactive sexual desire disorder, described as a lack of sexual appetite that causes emotional distress.”

Ain’t that sweet? I get so emotional when I can’t service the cock! And that shit should qualify more females for disability because if a lack of sexual appetite causes emotional distress, how the fuck(no pun intended)can I go to work and fucktion? My mood swings are just so fucking off the charts, a pendulum has nothing on my mood swings due to my inability to hype up some damn desire for a cock. I want a check for that shit! And I want it now, goddamn it. Can’t you see how emotional I am over all of this shit? I can’t fuck! I can’t work! I can’t sleep! My mate is trying to crawl all over me and I am having none of it see, ’cause my libido is no mo, Joe! Didn’t you hear me the first 25,000 times I told you that? Tell the FDA to approve ‘flibanserin’ so that I can service that there cock of yours because my non-existent libido has nothing whatsoever to do with the fact that I am tired out of my goddamn mind since I’ve worked a double shift, drove the kids to soccer practice, picked up the dry cleaning, cooked a sit down dinner, washed three loads of clothes, balanced the checkbook, walked the dog, fed the cat, gave the kids a bath, read them a bedtime story and then dragged my tired ass into the shower and then proceeded to crawl to my bed, only to have to get up in two hours and press the damn repeat button while the only thing YOU did was work an eight hour shift, head home and pop Viagra.

Doctor, doctor, I am emotionally distressed at the fact that I just cannot find my libido! Give me a pill for that. There must be something that I can take to make me want to sexually satisfy my mate who is just so ‘put out’ by my inability to have sex and when I can’t have sex, I turn into a she-devil and we all know that I suffer from PMS, so now throw in ‘hypoactive sexual desire disorder’ and that makes me, a basket case, for damn certain and THAT is disabling!

Oh, indeed, it is most definitely an illness that I am suffering from and not just my ass being so goddamn cross-eyed tired that I can’t even see your damn cock much less have anything to do with it. Are they for real? Women are having to do it ALL and when we are perceived as ‘falling short’, in one particular area and when that area is in the region of a man’s holy and sanctified place, ‘cocksville’, why we’d better get a pill for that and get well quick, goddamn it! If my man takes Viagra, well hell, it should not be a stretch for me to be needing all up and down on some ‘flibanserin’ for my libido no show.

Now, if they could only make a pill to relieve my fucking loss of ‘desire’ for doing the dishes, grocery shopping, washing clothes, cooking, cleaning, bathing the kids, running errands and for everything else on my never ending to-do list because we all know that life doesn’t just stand still because my libido left the goddamn building. So, ladies…not servicing the cock is now an illness. We’re mentally ill! Go to the doctor and claim that shit as a disability and sit your ass down and say, “AHHHHH, this is the fucking life!” And when your mate asks you if you’re feeling all frisky and shit after having taken your meds to increase your libido, open up your nightstand and show him the wear and tear on his replacement, the ever so handy and perfectly ‘fitting’, dildo!

For the love of…!!!!!

http://money.msn.com/business-news/article.aspx?feed=AP&date=20140211&id=17339496